The Day I Died

The day I died
I spoke some words
I told a secret
To a special bird

The day I died
My blue went downhill
Cursed my existence
I swore id never kneel

The day I died
I became free
Buddha found
I had stop seeking thee

The day I died
Did the world a favor
Reborn to the grave
You are my savior

Don't Follow Me

Don't follow me
Into the rain
Even though I won't return
I'll always be with you

Don't follow me
Let me go
Its not time
I still love you so

Don't follow me
Im seeking myself
I need to heal
Return a different man

Don't follow me
I'm doing this for us
Ill watch over you
In love, I need you to trust

Very Poetic

This is poetry at its finest. Truely an artwork.

Astrology

Like the ocean
A calms comes to pass
My souls sirs
From its wry unrest

Like the moon
I glow in the dark
Waiting for him
To see my spark

Like the stars
I blossom at night
Dancing in the sky
Alive in its arms

Like the day
I want to shine
Misconnections
Wishing you were mine

24 Hrs

I'm scared of something so strong
It fusses in my head
Confuses my mind
I go half crazy until I unwind

I can't describe my fear
It pulls me under water
I'm drowning too deep
For my sanity I do weep

These things haunt me
My memories I can't have
Im so afraid I can't speak
I always been a big freak

I Can't Place You

I can't place you
No matter how hard I try
I can't place you
Who is this guy

I can't place you
Had you inside out
I can't place you
My head still filled with doubt

I can't place you
Too many different sides
I can't place you
When I'm close, you hide

I can't place you
I'm still always learning
I can't place you
The truth I'm earning

Hollywood

Your amazingly gorgeously gorgeous
I know it doesn't make sense
Your just so lovely
My heart has to wince

Breathtakingly stunningly stunning
I am in awe
You have this way
A girl couldn't help but fall

Your fantastically beautifully beautiful
Not just good looks
He's smart, caring, romantic
And is a good cook

Your Killing Me

Your killing me
You don't know
Your killing me
How do I tell you so

Your killing me
Silently I hold
Your killing me
I bleed gold

You killing me
I hold on tight
Your killing me
I cry through the night

Your killing me
I won't be a victim
Your killing me
I am my own vision

The Dark Knight

They sold me lies
I bought every one
Now Im left with a gun

Please don't judge me
To whom it may concern
It's your fault you can't discern

You'll deem me crazy
And that isn't okay
I told you I was screaming in a subliminal way

Some innocent suffered
But I call that life
If not me, someone would of, right?

Everyone is sad
There's no sympathy for me
I just wanted someone to see I was on skinned knee

Hide and Seek

Finding my heart
Isn't as easy as it sounds
Out of places to look
I can't stop until I'm found

Breaking away from the sad
Isn't as easy as it should be
I don't want to be hurt
But depression always finds me

Being happy waiting
Isn't as easy as I want it
Opposite my face to the sun
I'm covered in spit

I Don't Want

I don't want you
Leave me alone
I don't want you
Go far away

I don't want you
Get out of my head
I don't want you
Please walk away

I don't want you
I'm tired of this
I don't want you
Stop haunting me

I don't want you
Because I'm hurt
I don't want you
But I do

Body Snatchers

Everyday's a lie
I fake it well
I'm someone else
You can't tell

The girl inside
I cannot show
The worlds not ready
For her to know

Full of smiles
You would think
Believe it not
I'm no saint

I bleed to death
Barely surviving
I need excitement
Life has been depriving

I dream about really living
Life on the run
The many adventures
Sound like fun

My mind can't find
It's escape route
I need to shed
My rotten fruit

Adrenaline Rush

I'd marry a man I don't love
Or kill someone
I'm desperate
For any type of fun

I'd join the circus
Or form a band
I'm drowning in the shadow
Of another woman

I'd be a Vegas queen
Or even hitch-hike
It's obvious
My life I dislike

I'd go on tour
Or learn to fly
I want to start living
No rules need to apply

I'd visit the moon
Or become a rolling stone
Anything is better
Than being in this world all alone

Everything to Me

Everything you stand for
Everything you say
Is incredible
Forever we'll stay

Everything I want to be
Everything I am
Is right here
Your my Abraham

Everything I cry about
Everything that matters
You are the reason
Nothing shatters

Everything that hurts
Everything I feel deeply
Before you came
Love wasn't a reality

Everything I fantasized
Everything I need
I hold in my hand
You take the lead

From the Inside

From the inside
It eats at me
From the darkness
I cannot see

From the inside
I breakdown
From my other side
You see a frown

From the inside
I cannot contain
From my pride
I am in great pain

From the inside
I crack open
From the end
I've spoken

From the inside
I'm unstable
From the outside
I'm perfectly able

From the inside
A person in distress
From a lighter side
I can clean up this mess

Unseemingly

When I think that you haunt me
Like a bad dream
It isn't what it seems

When I think I don't need you
I'm wrong some more
A piece I'm missing washes to shore

When I think I closed love out
My heart is icy cold
You show me a different road

When I think I can't go on
You give me reasons too
A cleansing is overdo

When I think you hate me
You sing me a song
And I know I'm wrong

When I say I cant
You show me I can
I wouldn't make it without my Tarzan

Euphoria

Lately, I go towards a light
Without putting up a fight
I go in wonder
Warned by the thunder

I sow a reaping
For all my grieving
You take my treasure
I'm blind by mystic pleasure

Bad Memories

Rip em out
Until my sockets bare
Gouge out an eye
With that scissor pair

Pull out those balls
Hanging from my face
To be blind is kind
For evil resides in that space

My eye has seen
A horror that stuck
With knife in hand
One by one I pluck

Now you see me
Without any peepers
The images still stand
I've lost sight which is creepier

Pastels

Red is my color
Bleeding are my eyes
I'm enraged so easily
God bestow upon me peace

Green is my color
Hate is my heart
I can't control my anger
God give me a life restart

Yellow is my color
Shaky are my hands
I'm crippled by anxiety
God send me emancipation

Black is my color
Battered is my brain
I can't stop the crazy
God help me go back to sane

Pink is my color
It is me
Showing hope
God breathe into me change

Blue is my color
Depressed is my soul
I still pray the rosary
God has made me whole

Dynamite

When you play with dynamite
Your bound to explode
You've changed
When I touch you your cold

I want to help
Everyone can see your struggling
Life hasn't been easy
There's a lot your juggling

I know my friend
This isn't you
What do I say
To break though

It tears me apart
To just watch you die
I won't let you go
At night I can't fight my cry

Drugs are eating you alive
Your breaking down
I ask god daily
To help you turn things around

My Reflection

You remind me of a place
I don't want to go
Don't let the smile fool you
It's a place I know

The demons reside there
Pain and suffering as well
I cant go back
To that torment its hell

It really hurts
To see or hear you speak
I get flashbacks
Of depression at its peak

I'm falling away
You have that effect
In a frenzy
My feelings I cant collect

My heart breaks
It's already broken
There's no talking
My love has spoken

I feel something for you
That is unexplainable
Part of my hurt
Is that your unattainable

Seasons

Like a yoke I'm runny
Overflowing with honey
But nothing is sunny
My story far from funny

Like a glass I'm clear
You can see my fear
I miss my dear
But he isn't here

Like a siren I'm loud
Lost in the crowd
So I enshroud
My destiny vowed

Like a star I'm high
Even though I'm not in the sky
I want to fly
Time doesn't comply

Like a melody I'm sweet
Hot from your body heat
Fire burns the sheets
My heart skips a beat

StarBright

I want to be in a band
Id be that girl
Guitar in hand
Spin and twirl
Projecting on the microphone
My true self shone

I want to fly
Far and fast
Adrenaline in my eye
My pain in my past
I'm going for broke
No time to think or choke

I want to be on the grandest stage
I'd be alive
In the right age
Head first I dive
The world at my grip
Im finally that star on the strip

I want to be prolific
More than you'd guess
I'm not talking pseudoscientific
A genius hell bend on success
I come for magnificence
Gold is in the path of diligence

Rebirth

Take me to the ocean
And let me drown
I need a magic potion
To turn me around
A healing process for the wicked
This my last chance for my ticket

Under water I become new
Such a beautiful transformation
Growing from my inner blue
I'm able now to fight temptation
I sink under some more
To further explore

Im drifting away to a foreign place
I feel a hint of peace
Panic starts to race
I either change or cease
They pull me up just in time
I'm in a state of sublime

Was my rebirth a success
I feel emancipated
Like a game of chess
I've graduated
Into a better skin
No more fear of sin

I Bled All The Love Out Of Me

I bled all the love out of me
You wonder how
Do I regret it
Once in a while

I bled all the love out of me
Anger at its peak
If I try to feel
I become weak

I bled all the love out of me
What else could I do
It was the only way
To get over losing you

I bled all the love out of me
It was my way to cope
I want happiness back
Through my sadness is hope

Sonnet

Her heart too bruised to let anyone in
My anguish turned inside out
I turn tar black
Blue seeps from my brain to the floor
I am no more

 

My conscience clear of fear
The devil stirs my thoughts

I fall into his known sand pit

In too deep to resist
I question if I still want to exist

Black Immortal Soul

My black immortal soul
Is dying from death
My black immortal soul
Takes its last breath

My black immortal soul
Knows no return
My black immortal soul
In hell it will burn

My black immortal soul
Numb from the cane
My black immortal soul
Is bleeding from the pain

My black immortal soul
Free from itself
My black immoral soul
Cries for spiritual wealth

Loop

My heart beats
To its own drum
It betrays me
Humming its hum

I can't protest
Or get it to stop
If it doesn't get to you
It's going to pop

I don't want it
To be in this state
It doesn't deserve this
Why have you done this fate

It still beating
A hymn that breaks
I put it all on the table
You have raised the stakes

Oven

Into the fire
I hope you burn
Hells waiting
It's your turn

Judgement day
Finally came
Eternal damnation
You'll never be the same

A smiling face
Led you astray
For your sins
You will pay

Music

Orange green and blue
Those are colors of you
They play vividly in my mind
Unraveling as time begins to unwind

Yellow is woven in
Adding twist to the bin
The patterns dance in sync
Forming a colorful link

Who knew you could paint with words
Your like a blossoming bird
Prettier than a parrot
Taking me away in a chariot

Your intelligent and deep
I sir from my sleep
Can't get your colors out of sight
They come over me in the night

Something Like Hate Part 2

You get on my nerves
I hate seeing your face
Your worthless
A waste of air and space

I never been so annoyed
Until I met you
I hate guys
All not a few

Round up you men
Drop y'all off at a plateau
I can't bare to be near you
So you all must go

Why you ask
Am I filled with such hate
No such reason
But isn't it great

Love Tug O War

There is no heaven
I searched across the sea
Trying to find you
To spend eternality

How can this be true
I don't believe
Is love a curse
Only for those naive

I'm hunting a unicorn
That can't be found
The child in me
Still thinks love is around

I feed the cynic in me
She isn't stupid for a drug
No rose colored glasses
I play love war o tug

Sober Bliss

I'm unusually high
I dont want to come down
I'm unusually high
Spinning up and around

I'm unusually high
My orgasm out of this world
I'm unusually high
I become unfurled

I'm usually high
I can't fight it
I'm unusually high
I need another hit

I'm unusually high
My soul in flames
I'm unusually high
Coming down is going to be lame

Innocence Lost

I was just a baby
We weren't friends
So innocent
Who knew I'd grow to love sin

I was just a baby
I didn't have a clue
So small
I'll do anything you ask me too

I was just a little girl
Evil unbeknownst
So quick
It was experienced

I was just a little girl
Starting to grow
So dumb
Fell into a pit so low

Fire Fighter

You light my fire
I'm bursting in flames
Since he touched me
I haven't been the same

You send passion running through me
I'm igniting with desire
I flush red
He made me a liar

You send sparks up my spine
I tingle with every kiss
Before you
Love was something I could only wish

Immortal

When I begged you
To let me drown
You lifted me up
What would I do without you around

I  took your hand
It gave me strength
For me to believe
You went the extra length

You touched my mind
And gave me life
I was fighter
I only knew strife

Saving my soul
You healed it from anger
I come away strong
Now I laugh at danger

Heavy Metal Love

I'm loving your voice
And your style boy
I'll give you my heart
Remember it's not a toy

Your turning me on
With everything you do
I'm falling in love
They don't have a clue

Your swag too vicious
Your killing these other guys
Baby don't worry
For only you I have eyes

He's way too complicated
I only understand
My past come to life
I'm glad your my man

Nougat

I want a rock
Instead of a black heart
It's hard helping you
When I'm being torn apart

I don't believe
But I'm helping you too
Sick to my stomach
Never can love be true

Robert frost

I'm paying in tears
But it'll be worth the price
Another night open
Eyes and mind alive

I'm paying in tears
But I'm still willing to fight
A fire sparkling
In plain sight

I'm paying in tears
But I'm here to win
Golden I see
And gold I shall receive

I'm paying in tears
But I have to be strong
Encouraging fears
The road less traveled is long

Comfort Food

When I'm hurt or angry
I run to you
I know it's wrong
But what else can I do

You wait there
Because you know I'll come
I'm upset
I don't care I'm being dumb

You give me a sense of control
Something I need
I can fight back
When life wants me to bleed

Cellmate

Hello hell
We deserve each other
We're both evil
I always wanted a brother

You complete me
My evil twin
We're going to have fun
Go swimming in sin

Hello hell
You own me now
Show me the ropes
I'm new to town

Diva me

It's hard to sit
And watch the clock
So young you are
I want everything you've got

I sit and count
The minutes pass by
Wanting to shine
Needing to fly

Kill me now
Because I won't quit
Until I die
I'm going to achieve it

How you were me
Didn't expect much
Fame was just a fantasy
Something only your mind could touch

Horizon

Warm and calm
You give me peace
A fulfilling still
I crave more

Minutes pass me by
And slowly
Your comfort fades
Leaving me in wonder

I Hate Love

I hate love
I wish it would die
I hate love
I want to make it cry

I hate love
If only you knew
If I saw love
The horrible things I do

I hate love
I need it to feel pain
I hate love
I'll bleed it's brain

I hate love
Why is it here
I hate love
It brings nothing but tears

Prophet

No one gets me
But they understand you
Your my inspiration
I speak in parables too

I see a symbol
Highly inspired
But if I inscribe it
It won't be desired

Cluelessly, fill me in
The flock isn't heard
Hear what I'm saying
In complicated words