The Last Girl On Earth

If I was the last girl on earth
The world at my finger
I'd have chariots and gold
They'd lie and I'd be a singer

If I was the last girl on earth
I could never fall
No supply and high demand
I'd be a Barbie doll

If I was the last girl on earth
Everyone's fantasy
Lonely a world
I'd be what you desire to see

If I was the last girl on earth
It would be scary
Crowded when empty
I'd be wairly 

If I was the last girl on earth
They think it was a gift
Nostalgia my future
Other girls I'd miss

Last post of 2012. Thanks to all of you that support my blog. Happy New Year!

Tales of Faith and Freedom

Kiss the sky
For my burning ache
Lies with you
In a peaceful place

Running on the beach
Barefoot and free
Such a calming still
Breathes through me

Raindrops whisper
Eternal bliss
A caressing love
I can touch it

The breeze warms
And I become steady
Jumping off the cliff
No longer am I heavy

Broken

A broken home
A broken heart
A broken me
Sitting in the light

A broken mind
A broken voice
A broken me
Set it right

A broken hand
A broken foot
A broken me
Held in honey

A broken face
A broken love
A broken me
I'm runny

Pseudo-Anti Love

Don't even think about it
Love I don't play
I don't want to see you
Don't come back another day

Ill hurt you
If you think of coming around
I'm not playing
Don't try to make a sound

You'll make me angry
If you try to creep
I don't need you
Try some other lost sheep

Novacane

Bliss is ignorance

I feel nothing
There's no more pain

It's like novacane

I'm free from feelings
And emotions too
I'm so happy
Oh say it isn't true

I can breathe again
The air feels good
Sky's the limits
I forget about wood

New-Age Love

No such thing as love
It doesn't exist
Your just going to get burned
Why put yourself at risk

Does real love really cheat
Or abuse you emotionally
You give up yourself
For what might be

The crap people take
For a bad relationship
I don't understand
That kind of love I'll skip

Is it better to love and lost
Than to not love at all
Is being treated bad
Worth tearing down your wall

Beer and Blood

The angels will save me
They won't let me burn
Hands grab toward fire
Good from evil I can't discern

Caught in the web
That I helped weave
I can't untangle
So I'm left to grieve

Depression is my addiction
I just collapse
Every time I try to change
A never ending relapse

Hero

You inspire me
To do my best
When Im discouraged
You put me to the test

Your my constant
Though my world rotates
Your everlasting kindness
Is what I appreciate

You have given me
All I think I'm missing
Even though I can't see it
I have all that I been wishing

I'm hard on myself
And very insecure
You believe in me
And I never been more sure

My god, my best friend
I'm lost without you
Forever in your debt
A sinner anew

In Your Skin

My reflection is you
Your all that I see
Every time I look in the mirror
I see you inside me
I reflect your pain
When you look into my eyes
It lives in there
All the tears you cried
Reflecting in the light
Stands all you wish to be
I look at myself
And see it in me
Gentleness reflected
On to your heart
It was never mine
You had love from the start
My reflection broken
Without you here
Becoming you
Is what I fear

My Rainbow

I feel it in the night
I feel it when I wake
Soon it will be here
Mine for the take

Just a little longer now
And everyone will see
That I am
Exactly what I'd said I'd be

If I'm a little more patience
A blessing will overflow
Into my presence
Of such a greatness I thought I'd never know

God is looking down
Smiling at me
I'll stay in good cheer
Until abundance I see

It's been a long road
Now that it's coming to a close
It helped me change and grow
I have become a diamond rose

Love Story

I love, love
But I swear I don't
If you tell me I do
I'll show you I won't

In secret, I dream
Of the day, of my prince
I watched boy meets world
And haven't been the same since

A love story, I want
Painted in my head so vivid
It never comes
I'm no longer sad, I'm livid

So reclusive, my heart becomes
I'm a wall of hurt and shell
I no not love
My feelings I keep hidden well

But inside, deep down
A black heart can bloom
The thought of love
I keep hidden in my subconscious tomb

Tag

My unrequited love
So close to my heart
Every time I'm near
I have to love restart

Searching again
For something I can't attain
Try as I might
Left with tear drop stains

But I'll never quit
Looking for my missing piece
Sometimes I get discouraged
True love will never cease

Blurred lines cloud
My vision and mind
If you want me
Why do you leave me behind

Lost Letter

You tell me why I'm sad
For something I've said I feel bad
What should I do
To wash away the lines of blue

I just I'm too close to the past
Everyone just kiss my ass
I'm working on my attitude
It's so hard not to be rude

So I'll just do what I know best
I rather pretend than confess
Ill hide myself deep inside
Too consumed with pride

Sleep will start to erase my conflict
For my thoughts I feel sick
I'm sorry replays in my head
My sickness spreads

I know pain better than you'd think
To think of you hurting my heart sank
No one should feel
The things I'm still trying to heal

Smitten

I'm breaking open
My eruption flows
Like hot red lava
I flashback to one of your shows

I hear you talking
In the sweetest morse code
Drawn to the flame
Overtaken by your ode

You set off my trigger
Right on cue
I'm mushy sand
So easily I unglue

My chemical reaction
To you is unreal
Changing the balance
This feeling surreal

An ethereal connection
You make me fade
Spiritual too
So deep, I'm afraid

Sparks fly
Every time I see your face
This crazy attraction
No other could erase

The story of us
Is something to see
To be continued
What will come of you and me

woMan-Up

I'm ready to crawl from under my rock
To stand up for my child
As well as myself
I decided to show up to help

I'm ready to kill fear
To look my fate in the eye
Be an adult
I take blame for my faults

I'm ready to stop punishing you
To sort through my web
And earn my gold
I'll sell all that can be sold

I'm ready to say sorry
To atone for your pain
A butterfly will emerge soon
I'm still trying to break my cocoon

I'm ready to use my gift
To show you beauty
Your a symbol of life
Rising from the stabs of the knife

I'm ready for my time
I've grew to new heights
The difference between the old me
Is I'm hellbent on living free 

Depiction

I'm always broken hearted
I just never know
Part of the routine
Just how my life does go

I'm always depressed
I just live through
Part of the grind
Something I'm suppose to do

I'm always relapsing
I just can't stop
Part of the cycle
I can't get on top

I'm always angry
I just fake smile
Part of my act
I live in denial

Heart Attack

Literally, my heart is hurting
I guess figuratively too
It feels kind of empty
Like I'm alone in a zoo

Figuratively, my heart is exploding
I guess literally as well
It feels kind of tingly
Like a sponge starting to swell

I Don't Want You

I don't want you
Leave me alone
I don't want you
Go far away

I don't want you
Get out of my head
I don't want you
Please walk away

I don't want you
I'm tired of this
I don't want you
Stop haunting me

I don't want you
Because I'm hurt
I don't want you
But I do

Split Personality

There's three people inside you
I'm going out of my mind
Each so different from the other
You belong to a by gone time

Theres three people inside you
I like them all
The first so sexy
I'm at your will when you call

There's three people inside you
The second, chemically impaired
A gifted eccentric writer
He does it without a care

There's three people inside you
The last tells of sorrow
He has risen
Now he sits on the clouds of tomorrow

My Angel

My angel, my angel
Words I can't say
My angel, my angel
Every night I pray

My angel, my angel
Fly back to me
My angel, my angel
Time never agrees

My angel, my angel
How I love you so
My angel, my angel
I'll search high and low

My angel, my angel
I long to be close
My angel, my angel
I'm left with only your ghost

Statue

It's hard to sit
And watch a friend
Pick a vein
Drain himself to the end

It's hard to talk
And not get through
Addiction drowns
How do I help you

It's hard to see
You hurting badly
"I don't want this"
You say smoking sadly

It's hard to be
The one to know you relapse
I still be here
When everything else collapse

Broken Hearted and Departed

Relationships make me sick
People always think to quick
Im done with its crap
And the pain from its slap

Life isn't so great
Each day I'm filled with more hate
I'm left with no feelings
I'm tired of healing

My Unrequited Love

My unrequited love
Leave my door
My unrequited love
I don't want it anymore

My unrequited love
Pisses me off
My unrequited love
I always pay the cost

My unrequited love
Kills my soul
My unrequited love
Breaks my whole

My unrequited love
Could never feel for me
My unrequited love
I won't plea

Glittering Gold

You look good
Sound good too
But the question is
Am I good for you?

You seem nice
Feels right as well
A question lingers
Something puzzling, can you tell?

You claim truth
But I don't know
Hiding in plain sight
Is this just a good show?

BlueBird

Bluebird
Feels so soft
Swaying sweetly in the wind
Bluebird
Shys away
Looking in dismay

Bluebird warily
Stuck high in a tree
Nothing is here
Bluebird sees buildings
A life beyond
The dried up pond

Bluebird can't fly
It remains alight
Glued to fate
Bluebird's sheds a tear
Someone hear its plea
To be set free

A Ghost Town

A ghost town
I hide in
Nothing's here
I pretend

A ghost town
Let me out
I scream
From underneath the couch

A ghost town
Im left alone
I lay softly
Digging through bones

A ghost town
Thrown away
I left here
To rot and decay

Insanity

I have gone insane
I laugh uncontrollably in the dark
The fallen angels come
Its so quiet I hear my heart

I have gone insane
Repeating an illicit verse
Silence kills me
From birth I was cursed

I have gone insane
I've waited for this day to come
It doesn't frighten me
It's retribution for all the wrong I've done

I have gone insane
But I still want to see heaven
Nothing can be of help
I've been crazy since I was eleven

Silent Rage

Ever since I decided to stay
Ive looked at you in a different way
It's not your fault, and that I know
But my hate and resent just won't go

My life was far from amazing
That new life waiting was blazing
But I got life-fucked
And in Philly I'm stuck