Intuition

Don't you feel
Something is wrong
You lay with her
But your heart's long gone

Don't you feel
Something missing
Like another girl
You should be kissing

Don't you want
A little taste of heaven
It's been hard for me
Since I was seven

Don't you want
All my heart
The purest gold
Has been here from the start

Don't you need
Me like I do you
Is my best friend
Missing me too

Don't you need
A Shakespearean love
Everyone wants
An angel from above

Hope No More

I hope that
Sweet tears you weep
I hope that
You can't sleep

I hope you
Are wondering why
I hope you
Feel my cry

I hope he
Is hurting for me
I hope he
Is searching for his she

I hope one
Day we are together
Until then
We'll fight through the stormy weather

Phantasmata

My awake is painful
My dreams are still
I'm somewhere in between

My awake is a monster
My dreams are faint
I'm somewhere else

My awake is a dream
My dreams are awake
I'm in another body

My awake is tainted
My dreams are a game
I'm frozen in time

My awake is god given
My dreams are of heaven
I'm a zombie

My awake can kill
My dreams surreal
I'm learning to be alive

If You Must Know

If you must know
I want to break down
But I have too much
Just to strip down

If you must know
Its a full time job being me
I hate how hard
It is to be free

If you must know
This is my only time to whine
In a few minutes
I'm back to faking being fine

If you must know
A secret I hide
I want to fly so high
My soul becomes unified

Tell Me It Isn't True

Tell me it isn't true
That you don't think of me
Like I do you

Tell me it isn't true
That you don't love me
As much as I love you

Tell me it isn't true
That all my bad experiences
Won't lead me to you

Tell me it isn't true
That you don't need me
Like I need you

Tell me it isn't true
That your heart isn't aching
Like my heart aches for you

Tell me it isn't true
That you don't pray for me
Like I always pray for you

All I Never Had

Can my love life
Be that sad
For some reason
Your all I never had

I'm not Molly
And your not Sam
I'm close to crazy
Reflecting on the dam

Can there not be a living
That I can see
Someone indescribable
Just as twisted and complicated as me

Is my love dead
Because I hate my life
We have a lot in common
We're both full of spite

Letting go is hard
I can't breathe in
How can I sent you away
Your the only one who knows where I been

Stuck On Blue

I don't want to be stuck
On you, on what I know
Just because it's familiar
I want to let go
Of you, of what I know
And get familiar with unfamiliar

I don't want to write the love blues
In songs, in poems
An adventure is long overdue
I want to be alive
For my dreams to come true
Like in the songs and poems

I don't want to be predictable
Like me, like I am
Lets jump off a bridge
Screaming damn
Be crazy and new
Unlike me, unlike I am

CITR

Where do all the ducks go?
I hear in my head
Are they sleeping
In a tropical bed

Where do all the ducks go?
I say in wonder
Are your trapped
Because of a blunder

Where do all the ducks go?
I ask a friend
They answer
"They go with the wind"

Where do all the ducks go?
I think, in the winter
Can they survive
Being the cold's dinner

Where do all the ducks go?
In central park
Are they happy
Or are their days dark

You Can And I Can't

I can't say beauty
Without thinking of you
I can't say love
Without feeling blue

I can't function properly
Without you by my side
I can't see life
Without asking why

I can't say home
Without you here
I can't say I'm happy
Without it being insincere

I can't breathe
Without your touch
I can't love
Anyone but you

I Was Here

I was here
Since the beginning of time
You should have looked
One last time

I was here
You were blind
Your eyes were playing
Tricks on the mind

I was here
Always and forever
I'll wait for the day
Until I'm your endeavor

I was here
Waiting for your hand
The day will come
When your my man

I was here
Alone and depressed
I need my love
To god I'd confess

I am here
In front of your face
Look to the sky
And follow my trace

She Has It All

She has the world
In her hands
I hope she knows
How to treat that man

She has his heart
I wish it was me
How lucky
Would I be

She holds his key
No one can take that away
A special connection
That will always stay

She has his proposal
What I wouldn't give
To be apart
Of the life you live

Be My Friend

Be my friend

When I need you most 

Be my friend 

Let's make a toast 

Be my friend 

When I cry

Be my friend 

When I lie 

Be my friend 

When I make you mad

Be my friend 

When I make you sad 

Be my friend 

When your far away 

Be my friend 

In a special way

Be my friend 

Even in the next life

Be my friend 

Regardless of your wife 

Be my friend 

Hold tight on to me

Be my friend

And never set me free

I Know You

I know you
That laugh
That smile
Am I in denial

I know you
That word
That joke
Eyes blinded by smoke

I know you
That look
That voice
The angels rejoice

I know you
That feeling
That touch
Dead memories I clutch

I know you
That memory
That spark
Your always alone in the dark

I know you
That day
That night
Woke up in a sweaty fright

Blue and Purple

Painted words
From two different worlds
By a jaded girl

Written above
Translucently
For no eyes to see

Drawn crowds
Agape and kneel
Come at your will

Sliding down
Free versed
Cant be rehearsed

Artsy life
Brushes hidden
Freedom unbidden

Visions

I can almost taste your lips
So full and sweet
Engulfing mine
In a blissful heat

I can almost feel your skin
The electricity volts through me
I shake in my bed
From such strong qi

I can almost wipe your tears
They singe my skin
Bleeding my heart
From within

I can almost feel your soul
Inside my own
A special connection
You feel through the bone

I can almost smell your scent
My instincts excite
Only in my fantasies
Can I have my knight

Words

The power of words
Is like to live or die
Such a important decision
Watch how you put them

Saying the wrong thing
Is worse than a wrong turn
One miss placed word
And you can crash and burn

I can make an impact
On your life
Twist it upside down
Or turn it around

Think before you speak
You don't want to be a reason
Added to problems
That already have me bleeding

Can you be so ignorant
You don't see
That your words
Deeply affected me

I look at you in shock
Not able to answer
Your so insensitive
Something's got to give

Keep Me

Keep on loving me
No matter how far you go
Keep me in your special place
And tell me so I'll know

Keep me safe
With you forever
Keep me sane
In a world not very clever

Keep me smiling
From your mercy and grace
Keep me patience
Away from haste

Keep me in your arms
And cradle my unease
Keep me heavenly
If you please

Keep me strong
With a heart so pure
Keep me faith
So I'm never unsure

Keep me god
My world is you
Keep me god
Our bond is true