Even Though

Even though you lay with her
I still think of you
Even though your far away
I still feel a connection

 

Even though I am difficult
I know you would understand
Even though I am flawed
I know I would still be your world

 

Even thought we are alike
I don't know if there can be an us
Even though there is so much to say
I don't know if we'll ever get the chance to say it

Even though your untouchable
I still believe I can reach
Even though my thoughts jumble 

I cant find the words to convey

 

Even though my pain overtakes

I still compose myself

Even though I love you

You will never know

Early Morning Drive

Just as the sun starts to rise
I get in my car and drive
To where I do not know
All I need is to go

I follow the highway far west
My emotions spiraling I confess
Faster I begin to drive
I start to come alive

I'm searching for something rare
I don't know what and I don't care
Panic strikes me fast
I contemplate a crash

I'm sick of here and there
Will I ever fit in anywhere
Oh home so long
Im off to a place I belong

I'm still on the open road
Bags filled with my emotional load
Coming up to a motel
What a journey to tell

I'll stop and take a rest
Still convincing this is best
No time for regret
A new future set

The next day I begin again
It's a little early for that gin
What the heck it's only a sip
Emptying the bottle on the strip

Back inside the car I'm in overdrive
Just want to feel alive
I start pushing ninety nine
Slowing down to avoid doing time

That adrenaline rush
Resembles lust
I'm on my way
I'll see you at the bay

If I never return
Forget your concern
I'm finally free
I drove until I found me

Untie Me

Untie me
Set me free
To be with glory
For only sorrow I have known

Send me up high
Unfurled and steady
Glue me to the mountain
So above I can always stay

I unfold
Vast and willing
Liberated by love
Set eyes on new sights

Untie me
I flow from passion
A side unknown
I searched within

Remedy

I lie on my bed
It's raining out
Nowhere to go
My thoughts about

Are you in your room
Alone like me
Thinking a thought
So beautifully

I'm filled with wonder
Though I'm uneasy and sad
I think more about you
And I become glad

Are you listening
To the sound of rain
Beating to your heart
Easing your pain

I feel assured
And happiness delights
A few more lonely moments
Until I'm holding you tight

The rain brings you comfort
And tells you what it knows
It whispers "love is near"
Then your heart can leave its woes

Abra Kadabra

In the dark I rouse from sleep
A humming noise made a peep
The sound came from under my bed
A small voice said this is in your head

I begin to open my eyes
A shadow peaks through the side
I roll over to see
A strange man laying next to me

I scream out in a loud voice
He says that wouldn't be a good choice
My feet paralyze so i cant run
He says let's have some fun

A sinister smiles comes across his face
He moves his arm at a steady pace
If I tried to escape his grip
Said out my heart he'd rip

Is escaping what I choose
Either way I'm going to lose
A cold metal finally reaches my neck
You know what comes next

He slits my throat
I'm beheaded like a goat
I wake up in a scream
Phew it was just a dream

I roll over from my fright
I see a man in the reflection of the night light
I laugh and say I've gone crazy
He says we're going to really have some fun now daisy

He slowly reaches for his knife
Whispers I'll see you in the next life
He kills me again
I realize this nightmare will never end
Happy Halloween :)

Suicide Heaven

I want to go
I need to leave
I'm sick of this world
And all these screaming trees

Taking my life
Is a blessing yet curse
There could be consequences
Which is worse

Labyrinth

Food churns in my stomach
Pain ripples through my head
My breathing no more
I am dead, I am dead

The tunnel is dark
No longer can my feet walk
In this unfamiliar place
I hear see and hear the spirits talk

Flashback to what got me here
The gun that took away all my fears
Ended my pain
Now everyone I loved is in tears

 

This new world familiar
I'm crying in my parents arms

Such elation bestowed upon me
Hoping this time around my soul won't be harmed

Memoir

Free from shackles of pain
What is there left to be gained
Too much thinking has my thoughts strained
All but far from insane
I want to rip the hair from my mane
Will I find peace in the grain
I'm calmed by the rain
The drops cool my red hot brain
My heart forever stained
These memories disdained

My life is alarming
Look out and see who did the harming
I Reminisce farming
A kid just learning
Trying make an earning
Now my eyes are burning
My head is churning
The world turning
To place I can't stand being
Half the stuff I want to erase seeing
The blood runs like I'm peeing
Hurt is part of the freeing

Half Black Heart

His voice a melody
Singing so sweetly
Has crescent moon shaped eyes
So alluring you cannot deny
Smiles to most
Sad to self
I can tell his heart

He wrote so abstractly
Your mind a colorful meadow
Full of abstact sadness
With crimson black areas
Running from his head to core
You know my soul is just as sore
I can tell his heart half black

Opposites Attract

Love, hate, love
We agree to disagree
Juxtaposition
Another confusing duality

Black, white, black
There is no in between
Dichotomy
Can't be seen

Lies, truth, lies
They always contradict
Paradox
You better think quick

Autobiography

Life is long
And death is quick
Which option do I pick

I'm left with little time
Needing to think fast
So I reflect on my past

God gave me life
Who am I to take it away
All I need to do is pray

Hope is near
Things will get better
Remember never say never

Don't give up just yet
I know it can be hard
Be a martyr for the scarred

Highs and lows
Good or bad
I'd pulled through the sad

life is long
Death is quick
I think with my life, I'll stick

Edgar Allan Poe

The knife in his back
Hurts worst than a broken heart
I cut him deeply
He bleed fast
His brain in a coma
My heart in a cast

Two hurts shouldn't end in a fight
I wish I never raised my knife
My rage uncontainable
No longer will he cry
Part of wants to save him
Part of me wishes he would die

Dumb

I feel dumb
A little stupid too
Let's call it happy
I don't mean to confuse you

Head in the clouds
Flighty like a bird
Stop screaming
I only understand every other word

Am I dumb
Or coming off a high
Either way
I push a lie

I see what I don't
And contradict all
My mind jumbled
Don't make that call

I'm not pretending
I'm just not smart like you
Dumb without a care
There's so much I never knew

Let Me Have My Fantasy

HaveLet me have my fantasy
Even if it doesn't come true
Let me have my fantasy
It's all I have left of you

Let me have my fantasy
Im stupid I know
Let me have my fantasy
I can't seem to let the thought of love go

Let me have my fantasy
I been through so much
Let me have my fantasy
I hate to be in a rush

Let me have my fantasy
Just leave me alone
Let me have my fantasy
It's the only thing I have to remind me of home

Psychosis

Periods are for girls
Nuts are for squirrels
The change is the same
The new pain is an old game

Emotions are for nerds
And flying for birds
I don't want either
All I need is my ether

Tears are for the weak
Smiling you see the meek
I am left so blank
In sorrow I sank

Go On

Dreams and fantasies
A similar two
Fantasies are gambles
Dreams always come true

Remember my words
When you try to quit
Trust in god
You can still achieve it

1993

My heart has left me and gone with you
I don't where to find it or how to find you
This feelings I have I can't explain
I feel you both through my love-sick pain

Send me a sign on where I should look
It took me a while but now I am hooked
Never should have let you get close
Because right now all I have is your ghost

It gets harder everyday
I wish I would have just stayed away
Then there would be no heart to mend
I'll decode every message you send

Cricket

His voice elusive
Color me gray
Dangerous and disturbing too
What can I say

Desperate he cries
His screams become near
I can't help him
So silently he tears

He wants it so bad
I know the feeling
He couldn't be further
So he copes by reeling

Reincarnation

The spirits sing
Through a moral man
He calls me
And I must take his hand

The drums beat loudly
Over and over in my head
His voice is getting stronger

Their song wakes me from my bed

Please go to them
And see what they want
If you do not come
Then you they will hunt

A lost squirrel at sea
They knew I was to die
The ripple effected me
She swore she knew this guy

No escaping your destiny
Theres no where to run
Ur struggles parallel
For you are the chosen one

Cryptogram

You were right
I was wrong
I'm stuck on your song

I feel it
You told me so
I wish I didn't know

Your message conveyed
I see back so clear
Is it possible I wasn't here

Intently I listen
Your voice unique
I'm mesmerize, and can't speak

S & M

I mutilate myself
Beating me red
The white meat begins to show
Why I'm hurting myself I don't know

I relish in the feeling
The pain brings me joy
It tingles my spine
Keeping me wanting it all the time

One more round of pleasure
Please don't tell a soul
They'll think I'm crazy
And I would answer maybe

I run my fingers over my skin
My scares heal itself
The wounds not so much
I'm sensitive to touch

Chasing a bird

I run from you
I won't look back
I hear your voice
Your where my hearts at

I am scared of you
I can't shake my feelings
I need a cure
I'm no good with dealing

I love you
I am very conflicted
I hate you
The balance has shifted

I can't be yours
I won't say why
I live life
He wants to fly

Morbid Nights

I dont do love
And I don't care
I don't do this
These feelings I wont miss

I don't care about you
Neither do I care about love
I feel like I'm on drugs
My heart needs a hug

I'm releasing you
I care not
On another plain I rest
Riding in my distress

I give little thought
Tired of silent talks
Run run away
The child inside me can't stay

A French word means nothing
Can't listen to what I fail to understand
Tears in a basket
Soon we'll all end up in a casket

Depression

It claimed me
It claimed you
Drove me insane
You coped differently with the pain

I tried to bleed it out
You tried to smoke it out
Our remedies weren't enough
This demon is just too tough

It took part of me
It took part of you
We withered differently
Still trying to achieve all we could be

A downward spiral happen fast
I lost my dreams
Yours were doomed from the start
The smoke and pain took his heart

I want to help me
I want to help you
My breathing stalled
We came when evil called

Trying to find a connection
Trying to discover a way
Depression is keeping me from the best part of me
Even though you're here I still can't see

The Path of Time

The dark calls my name
Fear creeps in
Panic takes over
Time ticks briskly
Sweat runs down my forehead
No turning back
There's no where run
I put down my gun

My destiny stares deep into my brown eyes
I hold its gaze
The future whispers slowly to me
Instructions still cloudy
Can't breathe with this fog
The path scary
I must keep going
Regret is worst than not knowing

A Singer's Song

Just like a junkie
I'm chasing a high
If I don't get it back
My life's a lie

The artist from the person
Seems like a different two
Even though your the same
I can't tell its you

I try and try
But never fail to fail
We're Insync
Can you rewrite my tale

You said not to be afraid
It was easy to create
Harder to shake
All that's left in me is hate

Why are you making this impossible
You severed ties long ago
Would I cry to him
We'll never know

The abyss is deep
Why not me
Instead it choose you
I'm still searching to see

Hunchback of Notre Dame

Who says I'm not
Who said I am
This world runs on looks
I look away
My face is broken
The ugly girls shall play

A shallow pool of course
I am not the choose fish
Longing to be her
She sparkles like glitter
So beautiful
I'm left bitter

He made me feel gorgeous
But I found a lie
You flew to her
I no longer feel pretty
Since he left me
My reflection I pity

My self-esteem damaged
I thank the tv for that
Magazine are no better
I binge on exercise
Becoming perfect
Will be my prize

Who will love me
I don't love myself
The ugly duckling
Will not turn swan
There's no escaping
My ugly forever bonds

Hypnagogia

For a moment
Just between real and awake
Crumbling
I see a different fate

He is, was my man
It's a real treat
Nervous
My heart skips a beat

For a second
Only can I touch
Crying
My tears you hush

Our souls to meet
In a foreign land
Reaching
But I don't know if I can

Apocalypse

In a world far away
Alone I wait
Each and every day
For someone

In a world gloomy and clear
I laugh aloud
Full of idle fears
Loneliness consumes

In a world so cruel
I crave excitement
For my time to rule
The worlds priced high

Poser

You and your cryptograms
Me and my trying
I'll never be an enigma
Can't blame a girl for lying

Me and my poems
You and your songs
Ill never be a lyricist
I can't write very strong

You and your trumpet
Me and my guitar
Let's start a band
You can be the star

Never Ever

Never will I ever
Get a chance
For us to have
A sugary romance

Never will I ever
Get to say
How you mean
More than each day

Never will I ever
Be able to touch or kiss
Your skin, your lips
And true bliss

Never will I ever
Get to hear
Your incite
And your fears

Never will I ever
Get to see the sun
Feel your touch
Or your love hon

Never will I ever
Be able to get ahold
Thinking of you
A love story untold

Bedroom Eyes

Twilight blue
Please comfort me
Your heavenly glow
Reminds of the sea

I'm mesmerized
Your such an alluring sight
Pulling me in
My body takes flight

Blue aurora
Illuminates my dark
How so magical
A journey I embark

Overflow dream
Into my dark mind
Colors captivate
And eternally blind

Road Kill

I'm over dosing on pain
Call call call
The doctor will not come
If I'm really quiet I can hear the monks hum

On the table I wait to die
Hurry hurry hurry
Hope is none to one
I bid you farewell my soul is on the run

Stop the madness
Quiet quiet quiet
I hear as I shoot up
He gives me a pill and a cup

The walls mock
Laughs laughs laughs
And my shirt insults
The many voices inside me have long talks

Seven years pass
Go go go
They say I'm better
That I'll be a regular joe

A week later
Back back back
I see the padded walls
They knew I wasn't crazy when I killed u in a bathroom stall

Hope

Where did u go
Your hard to kiss
I search high and low
Which star do I wish

 

I look under my bed
And search for lovers
It's dusty instead
I still seek to find

 

I come humbled
Strengthen the stone
Dancing for rain
Black snakes do moan

15 minutes

Incomplete this lies awake
In plain sight I see my take
Holding out for the best
Hold me close to your chest
Signing the contract I'm binded tight
Saying to the wind "is this right"

 

No more lullabys I'm stepping out
Now is not the time to be about
Can't you tell the missing piece
Can't you see I won't cease
How can you play with fire
Hitting the cot for only an hour

Time is almost here
This brings great fear
Grazing the grass with my hand
Gazing into the eyes of this man
Never can I speak a thousand words
Never will I fly like a bird

One In A Million

I want to be struck by lighting
So strike me dead
I know exactly what I'm saying
Everything is okay in my head

I need to be struck by lighting
I waited for so long
Anxiously I sit
While the music ends our song

I prayed for the day I'm struck by lighting
Why haven't I been hit
I did all the incantations
What did I miss

Just To Hear Your Voice

Just to hear your voice
I listen to the wind
It fades fast
I'm losing my friend

Just to hear your voice
Cassette are all I know
I'm scared of fear
I don't want to let you go

Just to hear your voice
The crazy things I'd do
My heart can't explain
The connection I have with you

Just to hear your voice
And keep you in my head
I need you here
Enough said

Picture Imperfect

I need implants
I need abs
I need a body just fab
One hundred things wrong with me
Looking at photos of what I can never be

I need lighter hair
I need longer legs
I need to be debonair
Too many influences on my thoughts
Perfection is impossibly sought

I need bigger lips
I need a straighter nose
I need lots of chips
So many changes to make
When I look at myself I'm filled with hate

About a guy

About a guy
He has the most gorgeous eyes
Sometimes they're blue
Sometimes they're green
Did I mention he's mean

This guy so elusive
I don't understand him
Sometimes he's shy
Sometimes he's not
Intelligent, complicated, and hott

My guy makes me sizzle
I'm captivated instantly
Sometimes he's sad
Sometimes he's bad
Watch out when he gets mad

That guy, dangerous
You can't help but fall under his spell
Sometimes I'm nervous
Sometimes I'm in bliss
Blinded by each and every kiss

About this mind blowing guy
He's too deep to be alive
Sometimes I'm on edge
Sometimes I'm frighten
I will be here until the end

About him
What more can I say
Sometimes I'm crazy
Sometimes I'm blue
Your love makes me do things normally I wouldn't do

Mirrors

I know you
And you know me
But were to blind to see
That our situations are similarly

You save me
And ill save you
If only our hearts were true
Then we could break from blue

You and I
Find different types of High
Needing for god to stop our cry
Send us an angel from the sky

Me tempted by you
Now what are we to do
All we have is us two
I can't run without my shoe

Where could he be
Alone without any glee
They need to become a we
And deliverance we shall see

Blood

A surge of emotions
And I'm able to cry
Without that release
I know I have died

A pool of blood
I lay in defeat
Time ticks on
Reality is bleak

My pain surreal
Long ago I once knew
Seasons change
What shall I do

Keith

Keith and me
We hate each other
He screws me off
Time after time
I pay for his crime

I don't want to need him
But humans need this
He wins over me
And continues his assault
The way I'm acting is his fault

I can't think to well
In some me a
The headaches flood
Zombie is I
If I don't go under soon I'll die

At your will I crumble
There's nothing I can say
I've been punished enough
Do as you wish
Your evil relentless

Incomplete

Your dying words
Are my last wish
Carrying me
I don't want to write this

My soul to keep
But others want it
Nothing changes
I'm going out of my wits

Demons

I bid thee farewell
We won't meet again
Our time up
Goodbye sin

I needed you
But I am whole 
Rise against you
I'm taken back what you stole

I'm strong like a riddle
Ready to break you down
I pray the rosary
So I win this round

About Time

Today is the day
Tommorrow is far
Yesterday is going fast
I feel my past

Monday is wrong
Friday isn't right
Thursday's coming soon
I hug the moon

 

Now is boring
Here is scary
Never comes before my eyes
I'm consumed by all my lies

 

Today is the day
Tomorrow's here
Yesterday fades
And time is clear

Lighthouse

I want a guy
To treat you well
Show you your special
Take care of you for me

Hold you tight
When your crying
And wipe your tears
Giving you security

Look at you
In a loving way
A spiritual connection
Merges you into one

He'll be kind
What's in your heart
You'll see in him
I'll smile in heaven

Our time is missed
But I want you to have happiness
This is not goodbye
Even though I want you with another guy

Reset

The door opens
And shuts again
I take a step out
And start back where I begin

Is that failure
Should I restart
One to many setbacks
Has numbed my heart

The door opens
And closes once more
I take a step out
And pray life is what I hoped for

Monster

I'll be the monster you created
In your sleep
I'll be the monster you created
While I weep

I'll be the monster you created
In your mind
I'll be the monster you created
I need more wine

Ill be the monster you created
Because I'm full of hate
I'll be the monster you created
Theres no escape

I'll be the monster you created
To help you through
I'll be the monster you created
I'm hurting just like you

I'll be the monster you created
Because I'm full of demons
I'll be the monster you created
No one cares I'm screaming

Oh Say Can't You See Part 2

Wandering through the night
This city never sleeps
Alive with passion
So beautiful you may weep

The museum calls me
I peek in the window
It's majestic
Blossoming with innuendos

The lake is lit up brightly
Speaking my name
The waters vibrations pass through me
I'm so happy I came

A exotic taste in my mouth
What lies ahead next
Such a magical place
I must of been hexed

The cars drive slowly
As dawn will soon come
I watch in wonder
For my feet are numb

The dark has left
And light remains
My memories everlasting
I have so much to gain

The night was ours
And we learned so much
I found bliss
Nirvana was touched

Cookie Jar

I heard your poem
It still makes me cry
It was meant for me
Even though I wasn't alive

The way it touches me
Instantly I'm captivated
It surges through my body
I'm brought back to life, emancipated

Your voice so heavenly
An angel was sent
Your words mesmerizing
Im lost in your scent

So now is my turn
For me to say
Some words so special
In your heart it forever will stay

I love you more
Than I could ever express
You'll beat in my heart
Even though your at rest

Reach out from the sky
And take my hand
My love infinite
I'll be writing our story in the sand

Generation Me

Oh! I'm ashamed
So I won't show
That our apathy
Is aglow

Oh! I'm tired
Of revolting alone
An army of me
We need more clones

Oh! I'm ready
To run nowhere
I'll just stand
Watching without a care

Oh! I want
To stand proud
A sickness spreads
Called head in the clouds

Oh! I wish
Drama you didn't promote
Redirect your energy
Positivity should be invoked

The Reaping

I want to bleed the world
Just like they did me
Its there turn to hurt
And my time to be free

To see everyone suffer
That laughed while I cried
A knife in your back
My excitement I can't hide

I watched you cry
I'm elated
Your in so much pain
I'm so glad your jaded

Your reaping what you sowed
The bible proves true
If you were a better person
This wouldn't of happen to you

The Sad

The sad is too painful
I sent it all away
The sad is too depressing
I found a better day

The sad is too much
I can't take anymore
The sad is easy to touch
What am I looking for

The sad is the old me
I grew a lighter side
The sad tries to call
I don't hear its cries

The sad is too stressful
I'm spinning out of sight
The sad is darkness
Finally I'm alright

Looking In

Obtusely laying
And thoughts similarly
Fog around grey matters
Separating me from me

Complexities grow
And thoughts become
Seasonal but frequent
More convulsively numb

Sideway views
And thoughts alike
From a light house
Brings an anticipated delight

I Won't

I won't tell
If you do speak
Keep my secrets
And let's take a leap

I won't cry
If you say so
Visions of a rainbow
Tell me where to go

I wont be happy
If you are bleeding
Softly take my hand
In secret we're meeting

I won't dance
If you do feel
Touch me
I need to heal

I won't sing
If its not your will
Raindrops fall
My love does spill

Delirious

I run from the pit
But the quick sand chases
Swallowing my feet
I embrace it

Down in a hole
Looking for a beautiful lie
It so perfect in my head
Just let me get high

Remorse

You fucking criticize everything I do
Fuck you, fuck you
I feel like I can't be myself
I'm someone else, I'm someone else

You are still trying to kill me
I see, I see
I'm fighting in every way
Ill be okay, I'll be okay

You think I'm fine
How blind, how blind
To stupid to know
I won't go, I won't go

Angels and Demons

An angel sat and talked to god
He told her everything would be alright
She said this world to painful to endure
She long for the day suffering is no more

 

He comforted her and calmed the rain
Sent her to hell to change
He told her it would get rough
But she had him to call upon when things got tough

 

The angel lost itself in hell
But a tiny light shined through her hard shell
She was still there after all
Temptation she did fall

 

But she call on god whenever she would stray
He cleaned her up and sent her on her way
He told her he had a job for her to do
She promised she would come through

 

Good times and bad times god was there
She spread good cheer everywhere
The angel did exactly what god sent her here to do
She made this world less painful for me and you

Something like Hate

Men are cancer
A world of bliss
Stupid answers
I Wish they didn't exist

Men are dumb
I loath with malice
Banish them all to the slum's
I'm cold and callous

Men are pointless
Dreadful and atrocious
It's hard to hide my distest
I am ferocious

Men are evil
So it is
Dirty little weasels
They were such cute kids

Tribute

He's rowdy and he loves to fight
I just roll my eyes on his combative nights
How I love your bad boy way
Hes naughty, and loves to play

We fit each other like a glove
Argue, but never push and shove
Strange is what they call us
I shug it off they love to fuss

He grabs me, and holds me close
Whispers "your what I was missing most"
I understand his many plights
In so many ways we are alike

A classic good girl, bad boy tale
I'd stick with him if he went to jail
My love if there is ever anything I can do
If he left me for my heart I'd sue

Unusually High

I'm unusually high
I dont want to come down
I'm unusually high
Spinning up and around

I'm unusually high
My orgasm out of this world
I'm unusually high
I become unfurled

I'm usually high
I can't fight it
I'm unusually high
I need another hit

I'm unusually high
My soul in flames
I'm unusually high
Coming down is going to be lame

Recount

Dark and eerie, you
Lure me in
I fake and lie
But I want a little taste of sin

Holding me tight, your
Arms cradle my weary
Mesmerized by your spark
I faint not seeing clearly

With no release, you
Caught me so easily
I wish To go back
But this feeling too breezy

Worthy of regret, your
Showing no shame
Was it worth this
I play a losing game

Dear John

Come as you are
And be yourself
Don't listen to anybody else

Come as you are
And as you should be
Nothing wrong with being different from he

Come as you are
And cleanse away
Anew your innocence can stay

Come as you are
And as you will
Thou shall not kill

Come as you are
As a new friend
Soon our hearts will mend

Come as you are
And as you were
I know you loved her

Come as you are
And don't be late
I'll be waiting for you at the heaven's gate

Shadows

My dark angel
Wherever I go
Follows me
Her face she doesn't show

My dark angel
Protects my being
Is she evil
What am I seeing

My dark angel
I am afraid
Help me
My soul they can't raid

My dark angel
What did you do
For fate
Hath darkness bestowed upon you

Soulmates

He calls
He cries
He pleads

I come
I touch
I answer

She tells
She smiles
She runs

You whisper
You sing
You follow

He pains
He wants
He needs

I feel
I hurt
I reciprocate

He is
He will
He won't

I do
I say
I don't

You sit
You wait
You inspire

She sees
She speaks
She stops

We changed
We grew
We are

Martyr

Ill be your martyr
If you promise me you'll survive
I'm putting myself out there
To show you I'm on your side

It took me awhile to accept my fate
I was a desperate girl
Hurling myself into a fantasy
There was no escaping my world

Forever in the mist of sorrow
I sought for a brighter days
Just to inspire you
I changed my negative ways

Story Telling

In a forest of purple and pink trees
A gaze of wonder leaves me
I was skipping to town from the hills
Exploring a new path with many thrills

The berries fall from the tree
I am on bent knee
I eat them one by one
My face is burnt from the sun

I'm stuck on the ground
It's a long way from town
A thought of home passes through
Where have the rabbits gone to?

Even though I must'nt stay
Something won't break me away
This mystic land I know well
Isn't of peace like in the fairy tales

A shadow is cast down from above
I hear the humming of doves
Panic strikes me real fast
Moving will be a tricky task

Finally I'm able to run
Some awful music has begun
My time has come to near
How did I even get here

I wake up in my bed
Could that adventure be in my head
It felt to alive to be a dream
I'm blinded by a white beam

Perfectly Imperfect

I'm so perfect
Why do I need to be
I can't stop criticizing me

I know I'm the only enemy
Yet I rip myself out
Going crazy inside I need to shout

Hear me now
Before its too late
My organs swollen I've sealed my fate

I fail on schedule
Tear me away some more
Im not stopping until I'm sore

Am I so opposite
Why is wrong not right
Needing not to be so is my plight    

Overcome is today
Suffering from a flawed state
I'm looking forward to that date

Angel Burn

The voice of an angel
It is so sweet
Singing of death
You don't know hidden defeat

She sends her message
Your in awe
Drowned in her aurora
I wish you never saw

There's something so wrong
Yet I want it to be right
The illusions not real
But I don't want to fight

I sunk into the ocean
The strings in my ear
Her siren called home
The darkness almost near

Was It a Dream

Was it a dream
When we were together
I thought we'd last forever

Was it a dream
Too real to be true
How am I suppose to remember you

Was it a dream
A memory fading fast
All that's precious to me far from my grasp

Was it a dream
My moments shimmering away
I pray you come back to me one day

Was it a dream
Without your love I can't cope
I sing every night because I still have hope

Politics

What am I
Something unrealistically plain
To come up with an answer
I send my mind insane

Stop your thoughts
Press Pause
People like you
I blame for societies cause

Mocking Jay

Change is the key to all the worlds problems
But no one has an answer
I'm stuck living in cancer

Chaos all around
But no one is crazy
Why have a baby

Slated and jaded eyes scream
But everyone is full smiles
The world is in a bad state of denial

Pressures abundant
But no one can crack
Thinking in a box is wack

A savior bids light
But no one is lost
For your soul you will cost

Judging stares inside out
But everyone is plastic
Can you tell I'm being sarcastic

Ke$ha

We are who we are
So be who you want to be
Keep being yourself
And you'll be free

We want what we want
So go and achieve
It's going to get hard
Fight when you need to grieve

We do as we do
So go get it done
Make your mistakes
Regret isn't fun

We see what we see
So stop the acid lies
It looked better in the desert
But you must be wise

We are who we are
So go for all you want
Be who you need
The thrill is in the hunt

Death at a Price

Damned from birth
What am I worth
I saw too much
My mouth I hush

Gone with the wind
I'm crying for sin
Hooked on a show
Matter of fact it's snow

What does anything mean
This world turned me green
I sing a song
To be remembered when I'm gone

Insecure Girl

Insecure girl
Trapped in a shallow world
She doesn't have a friend
Or anything to believe in

Insecure girl
So cold and lonely
Her mind asleep in the streets
If only if only

Insecure girl
Blames herself for today
She needs love
But her thoughts she can't say

Insecure girl
Run run to a castle
Be my queen
See through your hassle

Insecure girl
Woven with anger
Smile with your heart
Her feelings will hang her

Insecure girl
Your story to a close
Continue to fly
Your a budding rose

Tall

O crying sea
I come into the mountains
I go without wonder
Proud and vigorous

From the sky
The hymns read
A special song
That plant a seed

Tall they sprout
Casting down virtue
My symphony
Came with the flood

Catch 22

Even when your next to me you are millions of miles away
Together seems like an eternity from today
Burning desire takes over the logical part of my brain
I want you so much it feels like I'm going insane

This one-sided love tears me apart
I'm wishing I could see into you heart
I need to know if my name is there
Something deep down tells me you do care

The ultimate love song couldn't express the crazy things I do
No one understands why I need to be with you
Until destiny brings you to me
I'll be dreaming of what we could be

This is the sad part
I need to distance my heart
But there is to much distance between us two
Once again I'm damned by a catch 22

Selective hearing

You like to hear lies
So ill feed you full
I'm not mean
What if I am a little cruel

Your feelings ill bury
Laugh as you fall face first
Pushing you in shit
It's going to get worse

Cycles

I hate you
Go away
I hate you
Die today

I love you
Please understand
I love you
My heart's grand

I miss you
It's been to long
I miss you
Just listen to our song

I need you
I'm steady
I need you
Are you ready

FallingStars

A star for Nick
One for Sahara too
She wants fame just like the both of you

You know it
And I know as well
Nobody else here can tell

You will
I won't get far
I'm being dragged down in tar

She sang for him
I sing for you
The wind called us too

Her voice desperate
My voice the same
Could you be from a distant game

You want peace
I want you to find it again
Third time around we will win

Prick

I bleed
I clump
I touch
I'm red

I hurt
I flow
I see
I'm cut

Peek-a-Boo

Into another demention
You send me back to 1994
My skin I'm pinching
I feel like I just walked through the door

Sitting in a studio
Watching you shine
I can't fathom
How this isn't in my mind

You can't see me
But I hear
I call your name
Im still very unclear

Ghostly we are
Just like this feeling
For him to see me
I've started willing

I go to reach
Instead I recoil
I'm scared that if I touch you
This moment I'll spoil

Watching in silence
I'm closer than before
Even though I'm near you
I still ache for more

Promise Me

Promise me
You will give up
If this gets to much
And lead a different life

Promise me
You'll still burn
When you bleed
And they bleed you

Promise me
You won't change
Your light remain untouched
Assure me we'll stay the same

Promise me
You'll always stay
And keep by my side
We'll be okay because we have god

Promise me
You'll find me
When heaven calls
I'll be behind you, time has stalled

Shooting Star

I wish I wasn't angry
I wish I was better
I wish I wish
To be more cleaver

I wish I didn't love
I wish I didn't want you
I wish I wish
But it isn't true

I wish I liked who I am
I wish I liked not to die
I wish I wish
For my soul to comply

I wish I had charm
I wish I had what it takes
I wish wish
To get a big break

Marilyn Monroe

I'm impulsive and crazy
But that's just me
I'm quick to attack
And never think rationally

Spontaneous and wild
A side most don't see
Take your time
I'll set you free

Stained by pain
I have a lot to learn
Bruised and insecure
For more I still yearn

I never listen
And do the opposite of what I'm suppose to
I'll fall on my face
Then come crying back to you

You haven't seen mean
Or sarcasm like mine
I don't mean to hurt you
It's just part of the grind

Extremely moody and inpatient
You'll never satisfy
Taught my self to be strong
And to not let anyone see me cry

I'm hard to deal with
That I know
Love the flawed me
And ill take you to a place most can't go

Why Love

Why love
Of all the other things I could of done
I could of been famous
Or on the run

Why love
Floating so high
A cloud of tranquil
How did I ever get by

Why love
Did you pick me
Graciously I wonder
Was I more deserving than she

Why love
Open not sore
I am new
My hurt and pain walked out the door

Why love
Do you exist
What a world
Without such a magical bliss

Slow Burn

My friend is slowly killingThe soul that lies inside
Everyone else is fed up
But I can't just close my eyes

I'll be a thorn in your side
As long as you get clean
I don't care if you hate me
Or if your being mean

Forcing you to see your strength
When you want to give in
Your stronger than your addiction
This losing game you can win

Constantly I'm on your case
One day you'll thank me
I ignore your curse words
Marking the day until your drug free

Your resentment I see
It hurts me you know
You don't mean it
So I let you put on your show

One step at a time
You'll been sober for a day
I'll keep pushing you
Together we'll pray

Window Pain

My bedroom knows only of the rain
My heart struck with love sick pain
I am not who I seem to be
All I dream of is poetry

 

I'm barred to this confine

We all must walk the line
I blame grey for my functions
They never work in conjunction

Be My Lullaby

Be my lullaby
And sing me to sleep
Be my lullaby
I'm yours to keep

Be my lullaby
You are just right
Be my lullaby
As I whisper Goodnight

Be my lullaby
As I fall
Be my lullaby
Play throughout the hall

Be my lullaby
Send me away
Be my lullaby
If you will I may