Just Like Me

Just like my addiction
Your hard to fight
Demons constantly in my mind
Persuading me to leave the light

Just like my drug
It's impossible not to have my fix
My fantasy and reality
Always conflicts

Just like my appetite
I need to eat
Im missing my dessert
So life isn't real sweet

Just like my desire
Knows better than to burn
I ignore my judgement
As the fire inside yearns

Just like my eyes
Can't help but sleep
My heart swells
From it's bloody weep

Sherlock Holmes

To prove to my heart
That we're meant to be
My mind is willing
To lie about what it sees

It trys to recover
A memory never lost
I must remember
At all cost

There has to be
Some sort of deja vu
We met before
I know, I know you

My head searches
But can't seem to find
Any bit of evidence
To prove you were mine

Grilled Cheese

I can't fight you
Why do I try
Your always there
With that look in your eye

You break me down
I'm at your feet
I love you so much
I can feel your heart beat

We are one
You feel it too
The first time you smiled
I knew I was meant for you

Together we found
A fantasy it seems
I didn't expect
A love others dream

I was in a bad way
Before we came to be
Confused and lonely
I thought there was no saving me

It was so unreal how
Like magic you appeared
I didn't want to let you in
Falling is what I feared

Everything started getting easier
I stopped crying in the night
The world was different
With you by my side, I sleep tight

Happiness wasn't deserved by me
I was only good at failing
You showed me my true self
Since then we've been sailing

Where ever you go
I won't be far behind
Your grace and faith
Has made me kind

You ask of very little
Always putting me first
I'll be your mountain
When your at your worst

What you see in me
I have in you
Forever intertwined
Stronger than the mightiest glue

Two

I feel you
And for you too
I hold out five fingers
They don't understand like I do

I am pain
Alive in the rain
You understand
We're one in the same

You are Lifeless
I've made a mess
Transparent beginnings
I detest

Elements of love

Fire and earth
Hear my cry
Fire and earth
Why oh why

Wind and matter
Take me away
Wind and matter
Oh do I pray

Moon and sun
How warm inside
Moon and sun
Where is love's surprise

Water and stars
Cradle me for you
Water and stars
Carry me to you

Wavelength

I'm getting sick of writing
How much I want to be with you
As a friend or lover
Anything will do

I want you in my life
And I don't know why
We're practically strangers
I must be high

Those other girls
Say the same things too
Am I different
Or are we a similar two

I strongly believe our paths will cross
You not liking me
My worse fear
Just can't be

Dear, Bullies

Bullies, hi how are you
I'm a girl you once knew
Bullies, take a second look
When I use to see you my heart shook

Bullies, you kept me in fear
Constantly crying with sweet tears
Bullies, I want you to understand
That you can make someone cut their hand

Bullies, do you know I have feelings
My high school years I was always reeling
Bullies, made school hell
I'm bemused I didn't fell

Bullies, I'm a different me
Confidence it took so much to see
Bullies, I got back what you broken down
I'm no longer scared of seeing you around

Bullies, I am destined for success
No matter what you did, on I press
Bullies, the world shall know
That from oppression you can grow

Ludicrous

For you to look at me
I would stop time
In the words of Sade
Is it a crime

For you to want me
I would die
A dream come true
I couldn't help but cry

For you to love me
I'd give my life
Oh how I wish
You'd make me your wife

For you to kiss me
I would give anything
If I can't have you
Then I'd be settling

For you to make love to me
I'd give up my dreams
For me to say that
A lot to me you must mean

Why I'm Cold

It's not why I'm cold
Because the heats down low
Thoughts of you
Explains my glow

It's not why I shiver
Because its cold outside
Your touching me
While you lay by my side

It's not why I'm burning
Because I have the flu
The fire in your eyes
Has chilled me blue

It's not why I tingle
Because I have an itch
When we make love
I sing in high pitch

Heaven

Heaven so close to my heart
I dream only of you
Bliss in my eyes
I'll tell you a secret so true

Heaven I need you
Don't cast me out
I made my mistakes
Lose your doubt

Heaven my sweet haven
You are my peace
The very reason
My pain starts to decrease

Heaven so ethereal
My scared world
Inside of you
I'm a new girl

Heaven my only light
I come hypnotized
Such a magical feeling
I'm paralyzed

Heaven so perfect
I wish to be like you
Free from humanly ways
Glad I was on your rescue

10 Questions for Love

What are you doing
Often I wonder
It's raining here
As I lay listening to thunder

Are you happy
Or is life going bad
I'm loving me
Getting back everything I had

Do you ever see
Beyond the clouds
If you look a little closer
You'll see me in the crowd

Are you lonely
Sometimes like the wind
Open your arms
So I can walk in

What are your days like
Where do you go
I just want to be like you
Just so you know

What are my reasons
That I search for you
You can't seem to find me
Though I leave many clues

Why can't we be as one
I know your my soulmate
It's been so
Since we left the pearly white gate

Have you prayed
Like I do before I sleep
Our love forever infinite
I count the days like sheep

Hidden Treasure

I'm lined with sliver
But made in gold
So you know
I'm something special to behold

Delicate like a rose
Sweet like summers eve
Rarity in raw form
Your eyes can't believe
Most can't see it
Only the chosen one can
Then I'll know he's special
My god given man

Choices

You don't choose to have me
So why should I choose you
I know destiny plays a part
I'm just so confused

You don't choose to care
Though I have feelings for you
I need you right now
I'm sick with the flu

You don't choose to rescue me
Though I send signals through time
Aren't we soul mates
The sundial's shadow fades

You don't choose to find what's missing
Don't things feel out of place
A backwards game of cat and mouse
Will I ever win the race

You don't choose what most
Would die to have in their hands
I would cherish your heart
Words I don't have to say

You don't choose to love me
But I'd still give the world to find you
My heart tells me you'll find me
My head wants to believe that's true

Seven Deadly Stages

Hellbent or Heaven sent
A little bit of both
I drive hard
Die fast
Live safe
Dream free

Success or a Complete mess
Both I suppose
I love not
Bleed loud
Scream silent
Fantasize red

Very strong or Always wrong
I guess your right
Forging smiles
Sliver heart
Purple mind
Sleep deprived

Blue Nights

Scary is the light that shines bright
It's the sound that creeps
And repeats
Though your sleep

Blue sparks fly up high
Brighten a room unlit
Will I combust
Or am I the shit

Just like magic it's tragic
Amused I'm in wonder
You flash by
Pulling me under

The static crazy timing hazy
Illuminated a fire
Open me up
See my desire

Hole

I'm feeling slightly jaded
Always hated
Alone

I'm feeling creative
Overstated
Embrace it

I'm feeling down
Is that you
No clue

I'm feeling a connection
Through the wind
That can cleanse

I'm feeling free
Almost
A living ghost

I'm feeling twisted
Emotions sifted
And here's me

Part Of Me

Part of me is sad
While the other is strong
It knows you'll be back
Though your long gone

Part of me is lonely
While the other is free
It knows a little longer
Until your with me

Part of me is ripped
While the other is longing
Is there such a place
That I am belonging

Part of me is sick
While the other is full
Does believing in you
Make me a fool

Grim Reaper

I feel like I'm the reaper
Could this get any creepier
I'm scared of my thoughts
My subconscious caught

Blooming in bloom
The darkness too soon
Her eerie words replay
As the situation relays

Sunbeam

I don't talk about the sun much
Because it something I can't touch
Though I wish it's ray wash over me
My sunny days died before I could breathe

 

Can I see through grey eyes
I'm being pulled back into your lies
Stronger than a tornado
A storm through the rainbow

Anyone I Meet

Anyone I meet
Would just be a substitute you
Though I have someone
Id still be forever blue

Anyone I meet
Couldn't come close
There would still be someone
I'm missing most

Anyone I meet
Could never compare
I'd give my dreams up
For you to be here

Anyone I meet
It wouldn't be the same
Flawed but perfect
I love the man you became

Anyone I meet
Wouldn't love me
In your special way
I wish these words you could hear me say

If I Could, Would You Come?

I could scream
Or just come undone
The things I do
Because your on the run

I could bleed
Unconditionally
Would you care
And answer my plea

I could die
From my unsatisfied needs
Your so far away
So all I do is grieve

I could lose
All that I know
Can we switch places
I want to be the one on the go

I could stop breathing
To get your attention
Your constantly on my mind
My name you never mention

I could say
A thousand words
Nothing's good enough for you
I can't be heard

Xylophone

I dream in black and white
Very dull
My mind a crayon
Colors call

Vividly drawn
All I will be
My world gray
Color I can't see

Brightly dim
A struggling flame
The rain has stopped
My rainbow came

Carpe Diem

Life is precious
You must grab ahold
Treat each day like the last
Each moment turn into gold

You never understand
How fast everything can end
We all take for granted
The time we spend

Listen to me
As I try to say
That you need
To cherish each and everyday

Make every second
Last a thousand years
Today you have it all
Tomorrow it could all disappear

Arms to Short

I cannot chase
What doesn't want to be caught
I cannot give
What isn't bought

I cannot free
What isn't mine
I cannot be
A slave to time

I cannot find
What shields its eyes
I cannot love
What constantly defies

I cannot go
Where you stay
I cannot bleed
For you today

I cannot cry
Because it isn't fair
I cannot hurt
If you don't care

My Love Is Your Love

My love is drained
Empty
Timeless

My love is unbidden
Liberating
Finesse

My love is dependable
Heavy
Yet clear

My love is harden
Shackled
Beyond fear

My love is yours
Heavenly
A cure

My love is life
Uplifting
I'm sure

My love is robust
Kindhearted
Without limitations

My love is warming
Tingly
Your creation

Never forgotten

I will never forget
How together we cried
I will never forget
The time we spent

I will never forget
The lessons you taught
I will never forget
Those special words

I will never forget
You comforting me
I will never forget
The connection we had

I will never forget
You being there
I will never forget
You were the only one who cared

I will never forget
My close friend
I will never forget
Though we reached an end

Yours

My heart
Beats for you
Bleeds for you
Is yours

My heart
Stops for you
Dies for you
Is yours

My heart
Hurts for you
Stained for you
Is yours

My heart
Explodes for you
Flies to you
Is yours

My heart
Is indebted to you
Connected to you
Is yours

Nothingness

I look to you
You look away
I stare you down
Your eyes don't come around

I cling to you
You pull away
I hold you close
You leave me with your ghost

I speak to you
You don't answer
I scream your name
You play your own game

I love you
You don't care
I show you my love
You fly away like a dove

Dear Suicide,

Suicide, your not my friend
I never thought we'd meet again
Suicide, what can I say
I'm looking forward to another day

Suicide, makes me blue
You lie to get people to leave with you
Suicide, I'm stronger than before
I don't need you I couldn't be more sure

Suicide, a subconscious thought
That is no longer sought
Suicide, stop trying to make me bleed
I remerged a different breed

Suicide, I'm not on your team
I know all your dirty schemes
Suicide, we reached an end
You were something I killed within

Changes

The butterfly inside me is finally free
I was trapped in life
Trying to discover me

A poet hides within she
Drunk in illusions
Just let her be

Heaven abundant yet far
I am soaring high
But I can't get there in a car

Something is missing
I know not
My conscience start hissing

Within Myself

Frozen
Cold
Black
Untouchable
Marked by the letter T

Shunned
Alone
Isolated
Forgotten
Set my pain free

Trembling
Scared
Depressed
Tired
Starting over will bring a better day

Bright
Redemption
Fear

Happiness

Somethings always in the way

Flashbacks
Pain
Requiem
You
Even though you weren't mine

Passion

Love

Freedom

Death

Your eyes told me we met at a previous time

A Million Reasons Why

I hate you
Not only could you sing
But your a genius as well
You wrote so abstractly
I'm in everlasting hell

I'm tormented by you
Your constantly in my head
He plays a mean guitar
Gifted and blessed
I can never get that far

I hate you so much
Why did you speak to me
You left me here
Useless and alone
Struggling to make your message clear

I Reminisce a moment with you
The anger rises slowly
I become irate
Your voice calms me
I realize it isn't you I hate

Sad As You

Sad as the day comes to pass
Sad as a blue flower in a rose field
Sad as a moment that never came
Sad as one person in pouring rain

Sad as a heart in shatters
Sad as an abandon movie set
Sad as no story to tell
Sad as the last farewell

Sad as being abandoned
Sad as dying alone
Sad as never fitting in
Sad as this poem's end

Sad as a new day all the same
Sad as never being free
Sad as losing life's game
Sad as heaven being ripped away

Sad as an invisible rainbow
Sad as never finding the sun's rays
Sad as always being stuck in snow
Sad as suicide's cries

GPS

I don't understand why
You can't find your way
I left a trail to my heart
A place your head can lay

What can I say or do
To make you see
That you'll be unfulfilled
Until you meet me

My arms are open
And alone I wait
Universe set the trap
All thats left is for you to take the bait

Prophecy

My dreams before me
Like the desert storm
All I see
Secrecy I'm sworn

My dreams untouchable
But not fictitious
I'll do whatever it takes
I'm vicious

My dreams epic
Bigger than me
History in the making
A great story to see

Keith Part 2

Keith and I
Never did agree
He always comes back
Just to haunt me

We sit in silence
One time to many
Amplifying my resentment
I need a glass of Henie

Keith taunts
And adds to my pain
He knows exactly how
To play with my crane

Oh how I wait
For my revenge
I'll burn him with fire
Surely he'll singe

Soon Keith will know
I'm the wrong one to screw
He's very evil
But I am too

Painting

I want to tell a story
But what would I say
Speaking softly
Words don't come my way

I want to tell a story
So abstract and bold
Incomprehensible
The room is cold

I want to tell a story
One like yours
Impressions last
And I explore

I want to tell a story
But my painting unclear
A dramatization
Through my uncried tears

I want to tell a story
About your eneffable beauty
Pictures can't capture
We would need a movie

I want to tell a story
Oscar worthy
Anything less
Would just be scurvy

Dream EPIC

My heart is with you
And I can't wait
I'm trying to be patient
But I know this fate

My obstacles abundant
So my fear rises
I can excel
I'm full of surprises

Again my tears fall
I'm aching inside
The separation kills
Every inch of my pride

A mans world
I'll shake it around
A tornado's brewing
Ready to come through town

An underdog
I always been
Though I hear "no"
I'm still going to win

One far away day
My face everywhere
A vision foretold
You better beware