Forgive Me

I don't want pity
And I don't want shame
I'm here to take all the blame

No more excuses
About how I'm jaded
My cancer hated

But I stand
And I say
Sorry for my sins today

Rejection

I know better than they do
I feel it every time I look at you

I see it in me
Which becomes very scary

I have something you don't
I will survive, you won't

I hate that most of all
That you died from your fall

Despite This,

Despite you,
I fly
Despite you
I try

Despite me,
I'm free
Despite me,
A future I see

Despite this,
I'll overcome
Despite this,
Will you still come

Despite life,
I believe
Despite life,
Dreams I achieve

To Ignore

I resent. I think. I do.
Because I hurt, I am, I say
I tried, I fly, I flew
To talk. To breathe. To you.

I numb. I can. I will.
Because I cry, I yearn, I plead
I want, I showed, I need,
To see. To love. To you.

Goodbye

Goodbye was all I heard
Goodbye was your last word
You said it as the end
You said it as we'd never meet again

Goodbye was a burden
Goodbye was certain
You took a pause before your cry
You said my name after goodbye

Goodbye was an internal struggle
Goodbye an elusive puzzle
You slid in an innuendo
You thought I'd never know

Goodbye was heart wrenching
Goodbye my fist I was clenching
Hoping this was all a joke
Some bad dream I'd soon be awoke



Goodbye was all I heard
Goodbye was your last word
Tears roll down my eye
It's been ten years since our goodbye

Raft

I could make thousands of rafts
But the water still wouldn't lead me
To where you will see

I could tweet millions of tweets
And your timeline would drown my plea
For you to come be with me

I could write billions of poems
And send them to your door
Only to find my love washed ashore

I could wait next lifetime
But that wouldn't be right
If I have to set my eyes on a new sight

Decay

I was sweet before the tweet
Now I'm mean and not serene
I was a smile before yesterday
The clouds block your stay

I was feeling in love like a dove
But it faded now your hated
There goes my youth
It breaks like a tooth

Love

Love is about the crazy
Being free and spontaneous
Jumping before looking
Thinking about not thinking
You live on the edge

Love is about the high
Being happy and on cloud 9
Driving to the moon
No gravity, no rules
You live without limitations

Love is about the one
Being made for you
Two bodies and one soul
Finding yourself again
To become whole

Even In My Dreams

Even in my dreams I'm trying to get to you
Even in my dreams that's impossible to do
Even in my dreams I wake in tears
Even in my dreams you disappear

Even in my dreams you tell me to wait
Even in my dreams you reassure me this is fate
Even in my dreams I hear our song
Even in my dreams you don't stay for long

Even in my dreams your hard to feel
Even in my dreams your not real
Even in my dreams I feel your pain
Even in my dreams I wait in the rain

Slipping Away

I feel, I feel

You leave me
I feel that way
Because I set depression free

I feel, I feel
Our connection fade
How do I get back
The friendship that we made

I feel, I feel
I have to let you go
It's part of the freeing
But I don't want to believe so

I feel, I feel
I'll see you again
Maybe next lifetime
We'll actually become friends

I Cant Be Without You

I can't go another minute
Without touching your face
It's tragic
That your in a separate place

I can't live another day
Without you in my life
Im reminded constantly
Repeatedly stabbed by love's knife

I can't breathe another breath
And I don't want to
My intentions clear
Through and through

I can't speak another word
And that's fine
My one wish
Is for you to be mine

Only In My Dreams

Only in my dreams
Can we meet like this
And feel such a passion
Our hearts can't resist

Only in my dreams
Can I break a taboo
I know it's wrong
But what else could I do

Only in my dreams
Do I sleep well
I walk around dazed
Underneath your spell

Only in my dreams
Are you all mine
The one place
That defies all time

Only in my dreams
Can we almost kiss
Look into my eyes
And I'll take you to bliss

Only in my dreams
Do I know it's true
There's no one else
I'm meant for you

How to hurt somebody

When they speak to you
Walk the other way
When they say I love you
Scream so what or okay
Let them get close only to boast
Then push them back like your under attack

When you make plans
Cancel like no big deal
When you get caught with someone else
Lie about how sorry you feel
Treat them like a game, you play until you achieve fame
Hurt them to the core so their heart will want you more

When they give you their all
Take it and give nothing in return
Drain them of all their love
Leave them in pain to yearn
Use and abuse them to break their self esteem so they'll think no one is on their team
That way they won't leave and you can do as you please