The Last Girl On Earth

If I was the last girl on earth
The world at my finger
I'd have chariots and gold
They'd lie and I'd be a singer

If I was the last girl on earth
I could never fall
No supply and high demand
I'd be a Barbie doll

If I was the last girl on earth
Everyone's fantasy
Lonely a world
I'd be what you desire to see

If I was the last girl on earth
It would be scary
Crowded when empty
I'd be wairly 

If I was the last girl on earth
They think it was a gift
Nostalgia my future
Other girls I'd miss

Last post of 2012. Thanks to all of you that support my blog. Happy New Year!

Tales of Faith and Freedom

Kiss the sky
For my burning ache
Lies with you
In a peaceful place

Running on the beach
Barefoot and free
Such a calming still
Breathes through me

Raindrops whisper
Eternal bliss
A caressing love
I can touch it

The breeze warms
And I become steady
Jumping off the cliff
No longer am I heavy

Broken

A broken home
A broken heart
A broken me
Sitting in the light

A broken mind
A broken voice
A broken me
Set it right

A broken hand
A broken foot
A broken me
Held in honey

A broken face
A broken love
A broken me
I'm runny

Pseudo-Anti Love

Don't even think about it
Love I don't play
I don't want to see you
Don't come back another day

Ill hurt you
If you think of coming around
I'm not playing
Don't try to make a sound

You'll make me angry
If you try to creep
I don't need you
Try some other lost sheep

Novacane

Bliss is ignorance

I feel nothing
There's no more pain

It's like novacane

I'm free from feelings
And emotions too
I'm so happy
Oh say it isn't true

I can breathe again
The air feels good
Sky's the limits
I forget about wood

New-Age Love

No such thing as love
It doesn't exist
Your just going to get burned
Why put yourself at risk

Does real love really cheat
Or abuse you emotionally
You give up yourself
For what might be

The crap people take
For a bad relationship
I don't understand
That kind of love I'll skip

Is it better to love and lost
Than to not love at all
Is being treated bad
Worth tearing down your wall

Beer and Blood

The angels will save me
They won't let me burn
Hands grab toward fire
Good from evil I can't discern

Caught in the web
That I helped weave
I can't untangle
So I'm left to grieve

Depression is my addiction
I just collapse
Every time I try to change
A never ending relapse

Hero

You inspire me
To do my best
When Im discouraged
You put me to the test

Your my constant
Though my world rotates
Your everlasting kindness
Is what I appreciate

You have given me
All I think I'm missing
Even though I can't see it
I have all that I been wishing

I'm hard on myself
And very insecure
You believe in me
And I never been more sure

My god, my best friend
I'm lost without you
Forever in your debt
A sinner anew

In Your Skin

My reflection is you
Your all that I see
Every time I look in the mirror
I see you inside me
I reflect your pain
When you look into my eyes
It lives in there
All the tears you cried
Reflecting in the light
Stands all you wish to be
I look at myself
And see it in me
Gentleness reflected
On to your heart
It was never mine
You had love from the start
My reflection broken
Without you here
Becoming you
Is what I fear

My Rainbow

I feel it in the night
I feel it when I wake
Soon it will be here
Mine for the take

Just a little longer now
And everyone will see
That I am
Exactly what I'd said I'd be

If I'm a little more patience
A blessing will overflow
Into my presence
Of such a greatness I thought I'd never know

God is looking down
Smiling at me
I'll stay in good cheer
Until abundance I see

It's been a long road
Now that it's coming to a close
It helped me change and grow
I have become a diamond rose

Love Story

I love, love
But I swear I don't
If you tell me I do
I'll show you I won't

In secret, I dream
Of the day, of my prince
I watched boy meets world
And haven't been the same since

A love story, I want
Painted in my head so vivid
It never comes
I'm no longer sad, I'm livid

So reclusive, my heart becomes
I'm a wall of hurt and shell
I no not love
My feelings I keep hidden well

But inside, deep down
A black heart can bloom
The thought of love
I keep hidden in my subconscious tomb

Tag

My unrequited love
So close to my heart
Every time I'm near
I have to love restart

Searching again
For something I can't attain
Try as I might
Left with tear drop stains

But I'll never quit
Looking for my missing piece
Sometimes I get discouraged
True love will never cease

Blurred lines cloud
My vision and mind
If you want me
Why do you leave me behind

Lost Letter

You tell me why I'm sad
For something I've said I feel bad
What should I do
To wash away the lines of blue

I just I'm too close to the past
Everyone just kiss my ass
I'm working on my attitude
It's so hard not to be rude

So I'll just do what I know best
I rather pretend than confess
Ill hide myself deep inside
Too consumed with pride

Sleep will start to erase my conflict
For my thoughts I feel sick
I'm sorry replays in my head
My sickness spreads

I know pain better than you'd think
To think of you hurting my heart sank
No one should feel
The things I'm still trying to heal

Smitten

I'm breaking open
My eruption flows
Like hot red lava
I flashback to one of your shows

I hear you talking
In the sweetest morse code
Drawn to the flame
Overtaken by your ode

You set off my trigger
Right on cue
I'm mushy sand
So easily I unglue

My chemical reaction
To you is unreal
Changing the balance
This feeling surreal

An ethereal connection
You make me fade
Spiritual too
So deep, I'm afraid

Sparks fly
Every time I see your face
This crazy attraction
No other could erase

The story of us
Is something to see
To be continued
What will come of you and me

woMan-Up

I'm ready to crawl from under my rock
To stand up for my child
As well as myself
I decided to show up to help

I'm ready to kill fear
To look my fate in the eye
Be an adult
I take blame for my faults

I'm ready to stop punishing you
To sort through my web
And earn my gold
I'll sell all that can be sold

I'm ready to say sorry
To atone for your pain
A butterfly will emerge soon
I'm still trying to break my cocoon

I'm ready to use my gift
To show you beauty
Your a symbol of life
Rising from the stabs of the knife

I'm ready for my time
I've grew to new heights
The difference between the old me
Is I'm hellbent on living free 

Depiction

I'm always broken hearted
I just never know
Part of the routine
Just how my life does go

I'm always depressed
I just live through
Part of the grind
Something I'm suppose to do

I'm always relapsing
I just can't stop
Part of the cycle
I can't get on top

I'm always angry
I just fake smile
Part of my act
I live in denial

Heart Attack

Literally, my heart is hurting
I guess figuratively too
It feels kind of empty
Like I'm alone in a zoo

Figuratively, my heart is exploding
I guess literally as well
It feels kind of tingly
Like a sponge starting to swell

I Don't Want You

I don't want you
Leave me alone
I don't want you
Go far away

I don't want you
Get out of my head
I don't want you
Please walk away

I don't want you
I'm tired of this
I don't want you
Stop haunting me

I don't want you
Because I'm hurt
I don't want you
But I do

Split Personality

There's three people inside you
I'm going out of my mind
Each so different from the other
You belong to a by gone time

Theres three people inside you
I like them all
The first so sexy
I'm at your will when you call

There's three people inside you
The second, chemically impaired
A gifted eccentric writer
He does it without a care

There's three people inside you
The last tells of sorrow
He has risen
Now he sits on the clouds of tomorrow

My Angel

My angel, my angel
Words I can't say
My angel, my angel
Every night I pray

My angel, my angel
Fly back to me
My angel, my angel
Time never agrees

My angel, my angel
How I love you so
My angel, my angel
I'll search high and low

My angel, my angel
I long to be close
My angel, my angel
I'm left with only your ghost

Statue

It's hard to sit
And watch a friend
Pick a vein
Drain himself to the end

It's hard to talk
And not get through
Addiction drowns
How do I help you

It's hard to see
You hurting badly
"I don't want this"
You say smoking sadly

It's hard to be
The one to know you relapse
I still be here
When everything else collapse

Broken Hearted and Departed

Relationships make me sick
People always think to quick
Im done with its crap
And the pain from its slap

Life isn't so great
Each day I'm filled with more hate
I'm left with no feelings
I'm tired of healing

My Unrequited Love

My unrequited love
Leave my door
My unrequited love
I don't want it anymore

My unrequited love
Pisses me off
My unrequited love
I always pay the cost

My unrequited love
Kills my soul
My unrequited love
Breaks my whole

My unrequited love
Could never feel for me
My unrequited love
I won't plea

Glittering Gold

You look good
Sound good too
But the question is
Am I good for you?

You seem nice
Feels right as well
A question lingers
Something puzzling, can you tell?

You claim truth
But I don't know
Hiding in plain sight
Is this just a good show?

BlueBird

Bluebird
Feels so soft
Swaying sweetly in the wind
Bluebird
Shys away
Looking in dismay

Bluebird warily
Stuck high in a tree
Nothing is here
Bluebird sees buildings
A life beyond
The dried up pond

Bluebird can't fly
It remains alight
Glued to fate
Bluebird's sheds a tear
Someone hear its plea
To be set free

A Ghost Town

A ghost town
I hide in
Nothing's here
I pretend

A ghost town
Let me out
I scream
From underneath the couch

A ghost town
Im left alone
I lay softly
Digging through bones

A ghost town
Thrown away
I left here
To rot and decay

Insanity

I have gone insane
I laugh uncontrollably in the dark
The fallen angels come
Its so quiet I hear my heart

I have gone insane
Repeating an illicit verse
Silence kills me
From birth I was cursed

I have gone insane
I've waited for this day to come
It doesn't frighten me
It's retribution for all the wrong I've done

I have gone insane
But I still want to see heaven
Nothing can be of help
I've been crazy since I was eleven

Silent Rage

Ever since I decided to stay
Ive looked at you in a different way
It's not your fault, and that I know
But my hate and resent just won't go

My life was far from amazing
That new life waiting was blazing
But I got life-fucked
And in Philly I'm stuck

The Day I Died

The day I died
I spoke some words
I told a secret
To a special bird

The day I died
My blue went downhill
Cursed my existence
I swore id never kneel

The day I died
I became free
Buddha found
I had stop seeking thee

The day I died
Did the world a favor
Reborn to the grave
You are my savior

Don't Follow Me

Don't follow me
Into the rain
Even though I won't return
I'll always be with you

Don't follow me
Let me go
Its not time
I still love you so

Don't follow me
Im seeking myself
I need to heal
Return a different man

Don't follow me
I'm doing this for us
Ill watch over you
In love, I need you to trust

Very Poetic

This is poetry at its finest. Truely an artwork.

Astrology

Like the ocean
A calms comes to pass
My souls sirs
From its wry unrest

Like the moon
I glow in the dark
Waiting for him
To see my spark

Like the stars
I blossom at night
Dancing in the sky
Alive in its arms

Like the day
I want to shine
Misconnections
Wishing you were mine

24 Hrs

I'm scared of something so strong
It fusses in my head
Confuses my mind
I go half crazy until I unwind

I can't describe my fear
It pulls me under water
I'm drowning too deep
For my sanity I do weep

These things haunt me
My memories I can't have
Im so afraid I can't speak
I always been a big freak

I Can't Place You

I can't place you
No matter how hard I try
I can't place you
Who is this guy

I can't place you
Had you inside out
I can't place you
My head still filled with doubt

I can't place you
Too many different sides
I can't place you
When I'm close, you hide

I can't place you
I'm still always learning
I can't place you
The truth I'm earning

Hollywood

Your amazingly gorgeously gorgeous
I know it doesn't make sense
Your just so lovely
My heart has to wince

Breathtakingly stunningly stunning
I am in awe
You have this way
A girl couldn't help but fall

Your fantastically beautifully beautiful
Not just good looks
He's smart, caring, romantic
And is a good cook

Your Killing Me

Your killing me
You don't know
Your killing me
How do I tell you so

Your killing me
Silently I hold
Your killing me
I bleed gold

You killing me
I hold on tight
Your killing me
I cry through the night

Your killing me
I won't be a victim
Your killing me
I am my own vision

The Dark Knight

They sold me lies
I bought every one
Now Im left with a gun

Please don't judge me
To whom it may concern
It's your fault you can't discern

You'll deem me crazy
And that isn't okay
I told you I was screaming in a subliminal way

Some innocent suffered
But I call that life
If not me, someone would of, right?

Everyone is sad
There's no sympathy for me
I just wanted someone to see I was on skinned knee

Hide and Seek

Finding my heart
Isn't as easy as it sounds
Out of places to look
I can't stop until I'm found

Breaking away from the sad
Isn't as easy as it should be
I don't want to be hurt
But depression always finds me

Being happy waiting
Isn't as easy as I want it
Opposite my face to the sun
I'm covered in spit

I Don't Want

I don't want you
Leave me alone
I don't want you
Go far away

I don't want you
Get out of my head
I don't want you
Please walk away

I don't want you
I'm tired of this
I don't want you
Stop haunting me

I don't want you
Because I'm hurt
I don't want you
But I do

Body Snatchers

Everyday's a lie
I fake it well
I'm someone else
You can't tell

The girl inside
I cannot show
The worlds not ready
For her to know

Full of smiles
You would think
Believe it not
I'm no saint

I bleed to death
Barely surviving
I need excitement
Life has been depriving

I dream about really living
Life on the run
The many adventures
Sound like fun

My mind can't find
It's escape route
I need to shed
My rotten fruit

Adrenaline Rush

I'd marry a man I don't love
Or kill someone
I'm desperate
For any type of fun

I'd join the circus
Or form a band
I'm drowning in the shadow
Of another woman

I'd be a Vegas queen
Or even hitch-hike
It's obvious
My life I dislike

I'd go on tour
Or learn to fly
I want to start living
No rules need to apply

I'd visit the moon
Or become a rolling stone
Anything is better
Than being in this world all alone

Everything to Me

Everything you stand for
Everything you say
Is incredible
Forever we'll stay

Everything I want to be
Everything I am
Is right here
Your my Abraham

Everything I cry about
Everything that matters
You are the reason
Nothing shatters

Everything that hurts
Everything I feel deeply
Before you came
Love wasn't a reality

Everything I fantasized
Everything I need
I hold in my hand
You take the lead

From the Inside

From the inside
It eats at me
From the darkness
I cannot see

From the inside
I breakdown
From my other side
You see a frown

From the inside
I cannot contain
From my pride
I am in great pain

From the inside
I crack open
From the end
I've spoken

From the inside
I'm unstable
From the outside
I'm perfectly able

From the inside
A person in distress
From a lighter side
I can clean up this mess

Unseemingly

When I think that you haunt me
Like a bad dream
It isn't what it seems

When I think I don't need you
I'm wrong some more
A piece I'm missing washes to shore

When I think I closed love out
My heart is icy cold
You show me a different road

When I think I can't go on
You give me reasons too
A cleansing is overdo

When I think you hate me
You sing me a song
And I know I'm wrong

When I say I cant
You show me I can
I wouldn't make it without my Tarzan

Euphoria

Lately, I go towards a light
Without putting up a fight
I go in wonder
Warned by the thunder

I sow a reaping
For all my grieving
You take my treasure
I'm blind by mystic pleasure

Bad Memories

Rip em out
Until my sockets bare
Gouge out an eye
With that scissor pair

Pull out those balls
Hanging from my face
To be blind is kind
For evil resides in that space

My eye has seen
A horror that stuck
With knife in hand
One by one I pluck

Now you see me
Without any peepers
The images still stand
I've lost sight which is creepier

Pastels

Red is my color
Bleeding are my eyes
I'm enraged so easily
God bestow upon me peace

Green is my color
Hate is my heart
I can't control my anger
God give me a life restart

Yellow is my color
Shaky are my hands
I'm crippled by anxiety
God send me emancipation

Black is my color
Battered is my brain
I can't stop the crazy
God help me go back to sane

Pink is my color
It is me
Showing hope
God breathe into me change

Blue is my color
Depressed is my soul
I still pray the rosary
God has made me whole

Dynamite

When you play with dynamite
Your bound to explode
You've changed
When I touch you your cold

I want to help
Everyone can see your struggling
Life hasn't been easy
There's a lot your juggling

I know my friend
This isn't you
What do I say
To break though

It tears me apart
To just watch you die
I won't let you go
At night I can't fight my cry

Drugs are eating you alive
Your breaking down
I ask god daily
To help you turn things around

My Reflection

You remind me of a place
I don't want to go
Don't let the smile fool you
It's a place I know

The demons reside there
Pain and suffering as well
I cant go back
To that torment its hell

It really hurts
To see or hear you speak
I get flashbacks
Of depression at its peak

I'm falling away
You have that effect
In a frenzy
My feelings I cant collect

My heart breaks
It's already broken
There's no talking
My love has spoken

I feel something for you
That is unexplainable
Part of my hurt
Is that your unattainable

Seasons

Like a yoke I'm runny
Overflowing with honey
But nothing is sunny
My story far from funny

Like a glass I'm clear
You can see my fear
I miss my dear
But he isn't here

Like a siren I'm loud
Lost in the crowd
So I enshroud
My destiny vowed

Like a star I'm high
Even though I'm not in the sky
I want to fly
Time doesn't comply

Like a melody I'm sweet
Hot from your body heat
Fire burns the sheets
My heart skips a beat

StarBright

I want to be in a band
Id be that girl
Guitar in hand
Spin and twirl
Projecting on the microphone
My true self shone

I want to fly
Far and fast
Adrenaline in my eye
My pain in my past
I'm going for broke
No time to think or choke

I want to be on the grandest stage
I'd be alive
In the right age
Head first I dive
The world at my grip
Im finally that star on the strip

I want to be prolific
More than you'd guess
I'm not talking pseudoscientific
A genius hell bend on success
I come for magnificence
Gold is in the path of diligence

Rebirth

Take me to the ocean
And let me drown
I need a magic potion
To turn me around
A healing process for the wicked
This my last chance for my ticket

Under water I become new
Such a beautiful transformation
Growing from my inner blue
I'm able now to fight temptation
I sink under some more
To further explore

Im drifting away to a foreign place
I feel a hint of peace
Panic starts to race
I either change or cease
They pull me up just in time
I'm in a state of sublime

Was my rebirth a success
I feel emancipated
Like a game of chess
I've graduated
Into a better skin
No more fear of sin

I Bled All The Love Out Of Me

I bled all the love out of me
You wonder how
Do I regret it
Once in a while

I bled all the love out of me
Anger at its peak
If I try to feel
I become weak

I bled all the love out of me
What else could I do
It was the only way
To get over losing you

I bled all the love out of me
It was my way to cope
I want happiness back
Through my sadness is hope

Sonnet

Her heart too bruised to let anyone in
My anguish turned inside out
I turn tar black
Blue seeps from my brain to the floor
I am no more

 

My conscience clear of fear
The devil stirs my thoughts

I fall into his known sand pit

In too deep to resist
I question if I still want to exist

Black Immortal Soul

My black immortal soul
Is dying from death
My black immortal soul
Takes its last breath

My black immortal soul
Knows no return
My black immortal soul
In hell it will burn

My black immortal soul
Numb from the cane
My black immortal soul
Is bleeding from the pain

My black immortal soul
Free from itself
My black immoral soul
Cries for spiritual wealth

Loop

My heart beats
To its own drum
It betrays me
Humming its hum

I can't protest
Or get it to stop
If it doesn't get to you
It's going to pop

I don't want it
To be in this state
It doesn't deserve this
Why have you done this fate

It still beating
A hymn that breaks
I put it all on the table
You have raised the stakes

Oven

Into the fire
I hope you burn
Hells waiting
It's your turn

Judgement day
Finally came
Eternal damnation
You'll never be the same

A smiling face
Led you astray
For your sins
You will pay

Music

Orange green and blue
Those are colors of you
They play vividly in my mind
Unraveling as time begins to unwind

Yellow is woven in
Adding twist to the bin
The patterns dance in sync
Forming a colorful link

Who knew you could paint with words
Your like a blossoming bird
Prettier than a parrot
Taking me away in a chariot

Your intelligent and deep
I sir from my sleep
Can't get your colors out of sight
They come over me in the night

Something Like Hate Part 2

You get on my nerves
I hate seeing your face
Your worthless
A waste of air and space

I never been so annoyed
Until I met you
I hate guys
All not a few

Round up you men
Drop y'all off at a plateau
I can't bare to be near you
So you all must go

Why you ask
Am I filled with such hate
No such reason
But isn't it great

Love Tug O War

There is no heaven
I searched across the sea
Trying to find you
To spend eternality

How can this be true
I don't believe
Is love a curse
Only for those naive

I'm hunting a unicorn
That can't be found
The child in me
Still thinks love is around

I feed the cynic in me
She isn't stupid for a drug
No rose colored glasses
I play love war o tug

Sober Bliss

I'm unusually high
I dont want to come down
I'm unusually high
Spinning up and around

I'm unusually high
My orgasm out of this world
I'm unusually high
I become unfurled

I'm usually high
I can't fight it
I'm unusually high
I need another hit

I'm unusually high
My soul in flames
I'm unusually high
Coming down is going to be lame

Innocence Lost

I was just a baby
We weren't friends
So innocent
Who knew I'd grow to love sin

I was just a baby
I didn't have a clue
So small
I'll do anything you ask me too

I was just a little girl
Evil unbeknownst
So quick
It was experienced

I was just a little girl
Starting to grow
So dumb
Fell into a pit so low

Fire Fighter

You light my fire
I'm bursting in flames
Since he touched me
I haven't been the same

You send passion running through me
I'm igniting with desire
I flush red
He made me a liar

You send sparks up my spine
I tingle with every kiss
Before you
Love was something I could only wish

Immortal

When I begged you
To let me drown
You lifted me up
What would I do without you around

I  took your hand
It gave me strength
For me to believe
You went the extra length

You touched my mind
And gave me life
I was fighter
I only knew strife

Saving my soul
You healed it from anger
I come away strong
Now I laugh at danger

Heavy Metal Love

I'm loving your voice
And your style boy
I'll give you my heart
Remember it's not a toy

Your turning me on
With everything you do
I'm falling in love
They don't have a clue

Your swag too vicious
Your killing these other guys
Baby don't worry
For only you I have eyes

He's way too complicated
I only understand
My past come to life
I'm glad your my man

Nougat

I want a rock
Instead of a black heart
It's hard helping you
When I'm being torn apart

I don't believe
But I'm helping you too
Sick to my stomach
Never can love be true

Robert frost

I'm paying in tears
But it'll be worth the price
Another night open
Eyes and mind alive

I'm paying in tears
But I'm still willing to fight
A fire sparkling
In plain sight

I'm paying in tears
But I'm here to win
Golden I see
And gold I shall receive

I'm paying in tears
But I have to be strong
Encouraging fears
The road less traveled is long

Comfort Food

When I'm hurt or angry
I run to you
I know it's wrong
But what else can I do

You wait there
Because you know I'll come
I'm upset
I don't care I'm being dumb

You give me a sense of control
Something I need
I can fight back
When life wants me to bleed

Cellmate

Hello hell
We deserve each other
We're both evil
I always wanted a brother

You complete me
My evil twin
We're going to have fun
Go swimming in sin

Hello hell
You own me now
Show me the ropes
I'm new to town

Diva me

It's hard to sit
And watch the clock
So young you are
I want everything you've got

I sit and count
The minutes pass by
Wanting to shine
Needing to fly

Kill me now
Because I won't quit
Until I die
I'm going to achieve it

How you were me
Didn't expect much
Fame was just a fantasy
Something only your mind could touch

Horizon

Warm and calm
You give me peace
A fulfilling still
I crave more

Minutes pass me by
And slowly
Your comfort fades
Leaving me in wonder

I Hate Love

I hate love
I wish it would die
I hate love
I want to make it cry

I hate love
If only you knew
If I saw love
The horrible things I do

I hate love
I need it to feel pain
I hate love
I'll bleed it's brain

I hate love
Why is it here
I hate love
It brings nothing but tears

Prophet

No one gets me
But they understand you
Your my inspiration
I speak in parables too

I see a symbol
Highly inspired
But if I inscribe it
It won't be desired

Cluelessly, fill me in
The flock isn't heard
Hear what I'm saying
In complicated words

Even Though

Even though you lay with her
I still think of you
Even though your far away
I still feel a connection

 

Even though I am difficult
I know you would understand
Even though I am flawed
I know I would still be your world

 

Even thought we are alike
I don't know if there can be an us
Even though there is so much to say
I don't know if we'll ever get the chance to say it

Even though your untouchable
I still believe I can reach
Even though my thoughts jumble 

I cant find the words to convey

 

Even though my pain overtakes

I still compose myself

Even though I love you

You will never know

Early Morning Drive

Just as the sun starts to rise
I get in my car and drive
To where I do not know
All I need is to go

I follow the highway far west
My emotions spiraling I confess
Faster I begin to drive
I start to come alive

I'm searching for something rare
I don't know what and I don't care
Panic strikes me fast
I contemplate a crash

I'm sick of here and there
Will I ever fit in anywhere
Oh home so long
Im off to a place I belong

I'm still on the open road
Bags filled with my emotional load
Coming up to a motel
What a journey to tell

I'll stop and take a rest
Still convincing this is best
No time for regret
A new future set

The next day I begin again
It's a little early for that gin
What the heck it's only a sip
Emptying the bottle on the strip

Back inside the car I'm in overdrive
Just want to feel alive
I start pushing ninety nine
Slowing down to avoid doing time

That adrenaline rush
Resembles lust
I'm on my way
I'll see you at the bay

If I never return
Forget your concern
I'm finally free
I drove until I found me

Untie Me

Untie me
Set me free
To be with glory
For only sorrow I have known

Send me up high
Unfurled and steady
Glue me to the mountain
So above I can always stay

I unfold
Vast and willing
Liberated by love
Set eyes on new sights

Untie me
I flow from passion
A side unknown
I searched within

Remedy

I lie on my bed
It's raining out
Nowhere to go
My thoughts about

Are you in your room
Alone like me
Thinking a thought
So beautifully

I'm filled with wonder
Though I'm uneasy and sad
I think more about you
And I become glad

Are you listening
To the sound of rain
Beating to your heart
Easing your pain

I feel assured
And happiness delights
A few more lonely moments
Until I'm holding you tight

The rain brings you comfort
And tells you what it knows
It whispers "love is near"
Then your heart can leave its woes

Abra Kadabra

In the dark I rouse from sleep
A humming noise made a peep
The sound came from under my bed
A small voice said this is in your head

I begin to open my eyes
A shadow peaks through the side
I roll over to see
A strange man laying next to me

I scream out in a loud voice
He says that wouldn't be a good choice
My feet paralyze so i cant run
He says let's have some fun

A sinister smiles comes across his face
He moves his arm at a steady pace
If I tried to escape his grip
Said out my heart he'd rip

Is escaping what I choose
Either way I'm going to lose
A cold metal finally reaches my neck
You know what comes next

He slits my throat
I'm beheaded like a goat
I wake up in a scream
Phew it was just a dream

I roll over from my fright
I see a man in the reflection of the night light
I laugh and say I've gone crazy
He says we're going to really have some fun now daisy

He slowly reaches for his knife
Whispers I'll see you in the next life
He kills me again
I realize this nightmare will never end
Happy Halloween :)

Suicide Heaven

I want to go
I need to leave
I'm sick of this world
And all these screaming trees

Taking my life
Is a blessing yet curse
There could be consequences
Which is worse

Labyrinth

Food churns in my stomach
Pain ripples through my head
My breathing no more
I am dead, I am dead

The tunnel is dark
No longer can my feet walk
In this unfamiliar place
I hear see and hear the spirits talk

Flashback to what got me here
The gun that took away all my fears
Ended my pain
Now everyone I loved is in tears

 

This new world familiar
I'm crying in my parents arms

Such elation bestowed upon me
Hoping this time around my soul won't be harmed

Memoir

Free from shackles of pain
What is there left to be gained
Too much thinking has my thoughts strained
All but far from insane
I want to rip the hair from my mane
Will I find peace in the grain
I'm calmed by the rain
The drops cool my red hot brain
My heart forever stained
These memories disdained

My life is alarming
Look out and see who did the harming
I Reminisce farming
A kid just learning
Trying make an earning
Now my eyes are burning
My head is churning
The world turning
To place I can't stand being
Half the stuff I want to erase seeing
The blood runs like I'm peeing
Hurt is part of the freeing

Half Black Heart

His voice a melody
Singing so sweetly
Has crescent moon shaped eyes
So alluring you cannot deny
Smiles to most
Sad to self
I can tell his heart

He wrote so abstractly
Your mind a colorful meadow
Full of abstact sadness
With crimson black areas
Running from his head to core
You know my soul is just as sore
I can tell his heart half black

Opposites Attract

Love, hate, love
We agree to disagree
Juxtaposition
Another confusing duality

Black, white, black
There is no in between
Dichotomy
Can't be seen

Lies, truth, lies
They always contradict
Paradox
You better think quick

Autobiography

Life is long
And death is quick
Which option do I pick

I'm left with little time
Needing to think fast
So I reflect on my past

God gave me life
Who am I to take it away
All I need to do is pray

Hope is near
Things will get better
Remember never say never

Don't give up just yet
I know it can be hard
Be a martyr for the scarred

Highs and lows
Good or bad
I'd pulled through the sad

life is long
Death is quick
I think with my life, I'll stick

Edgar Allan Poe

The knife in his back
Hurts worst than a broken heart
I cut him deeply
He bleed fast
His brain in a coma
My heart in a cast

Two hurts shouldn't end in a fight
I wish I never raised my knife
My rage uncontainable
No longer will he cry
Part of wants to save him
Part of me wishes he would die

Dumb

I feel dumb
A little stupid too
Let's call it happy
I don't mean to confuse you

Head in the clouds
Flighty like a bird
Stop screaming
I only understand every other word

Am I dumb
Or coming off a high
Either way
I push a lie

I see what I don't
And contradict all
My mind jumbled
Don't make that call

I'm not pretending
I'm just not smart like you
Dumb without a care
There's so much I never knew

Let Me Have My Fantasy

HaveLet me have my fantasy
Even if it doesn't come true
Let me have my fantasy
It's all I have left of you

Let me have my fantasy
Im stupid I know
Let me have my fantasy
I can't seem to let the thought of love go

Let me have my fantasy
I been through so much
Let me have my fantasy
I hate to be in a rush

Let me have my fantasy
Just leave me alone
Let me have my fantasy
It's the only thing I have to remind me of home

Psychosis

Periods are for girls
Nuts are for squirrels
The change is the same
The new pain is an old game

Emotions are for nerds
And flying for birds
I don't want either
All I need is my ether

Tears are for the weak
Smiling you see the meek
I am left so blank
In sorrow I sank

Go On

Dreams and fantasies
A similar two
Fantasies are gambles
Dreams always come true

Remember my words
When you try to quit
Trust in god
You can still achieve it

1993

My heart has left me and gone with you
I don't where to find it or how to find you
This feelings I have I can't explain
I feel you both through my love-sick pain

Send me a sign on where I should look
It took me a while but now I am hooked
Never should have let you get close
Because right now all I have is your ghost

It gets harder everyday
I wish I would have just stayed away
Then there would be no heart to mend
I'll decode every message you send

Cricket

His voice elusive
Color me gray
Dangerous and disturbing too
What can I say

Desperate he cries
His screams become near
I can't help him
So silently he tears

He wants it so bad
I know the feeling
He couldn't be further
So he copes by reeling

Reincarnation

The spirits sing
Through a moral man
He calls me
And I must take his hand

The drums beat loudly
Over and over in my head
His voice is getting stronger

Their song wakes me from my bed

Please go to them
And see what they want
If you do not come
Then you they will hunt

A lost squirrel at sea
They knew I was to die
The ripple effected me
She swore she knew this guy

No escaping your destiny
Theres no where to run
Ur struggles parallel
For you are the chosen one

Cryptogram

You were right
I was wrong
I'm stuck on your song

I feel it
You told me so
I wish I didn't know

Your message conveyed
I see back so clear
Is it possible I wasn't here

Intently I listen
Your voice unique
I'm mesmerize, and can't speak

S & M

I mutilate myself
Beating me red
The white meat begins to show
Why I'm hurting myself I don't know

I relish in the feeling
The pain brings me joy
It tingles my spine
Keeping me wanting it all the time

One more round of pleasure
Please don't tell a soul
They'll think I'm crazy
And I would answer maybe

I run my fingers over my skin
My scares heal itself
The wounds not so much
I'm sensitive to touch

Chasing a bird

I run from you
I won't look back
I hear your voice
Your where my hearts at

I am scared of you
I can't shake my feelings
I need a cure
I'm no good with dealing

I love you
I am very conflicted
I hate you
The balance has shifted

I can't be yours
I won't say why
I live life
He wants to fly

Morbid Nights

I dont do love
And I don't care
I don't do this
These feelings I wont miss

I don't care about you
Neither do I care about love
I feel like I'm on drugs
My heart needs a hug

I'm releasing you
I care not
On another plain I rest
Riding in my distress

I give little thought
Tired of silent talks
Run run away
The child inside me can't stay

A French word means nothing
Can't listen to what I fail to understand
Tears in a basket
Soon we'll all end up in a casket

Depression

It claimed me
It claimed you
Drove me insane
You coped differently with the pain

I tried to bleed it out
You tried to smoke it out
Our remedies weren't enough
This demon is just too tough

It took part of me
It took part of you
We withered differently
Still trying to achieve all we could be

A downward spiral happen fast
I lost my dreams
Yours were doomed from the start
The smoke and pain took his heart

I want to help me
I want to help you
My breathing stalled
We came when evil called

Trying to find a connection
Trying to discover a way
Depression is keeping me from the best part of me
Even though you're here I still can't see

The Path of Time

The dark calls my name
Fear creeps in
Panic takes over
Time ticks briskly
Sweat runs down my forehead
No turning back
There's no where run
I put down my gun

My destiny stares deep into my brown eyes
I hold its gaze
The future whispers slowly to me
Instructions still cloudy
Can't breathe with this fog
The path scary
I must keep going
Regret is worst than not knowing

A Singer's Song

Just like a junkie
I'm chasing a high
If I don't get it back
My life's a lie

The artist from the person
Seems like a different two
Even though your the same
I can't tell its you

I try and try
But never fail to fail
We're Insync
Can you rewrite my tale

You said not to be afraid
It was easy to create
Harder to shake
All that's left in me is hate

Why are you making this impossible
You severed ties long ago
Would I cry to him
We'll never know

The abyss is deep
Why not me
Instead it choose you
I'm still searching to see

Hunchback of Notre Dame

Who says I'm not
Who said I am
This world runs on looks
I look away
My face is broken
The ugly girls shall play

A shallow pool of course
I am not the choose fish
Longing to be her
She sparkles like glitter
So beautiful
I'm left bitter

He made me feel gorgeous
But I found a lie
You flew to her
I no longer feel pretty
Since he left me
My reflection I pity

My self-esteem damaged
I thank the tv for that
Magazine are no better
I binge on exercise
Becoming perfect
Will be my prize

Who will love me
I don't love myself
The ugly duckling
Will not turn swan
There's no escaping
My ugly forever bonds

Hypnagogia

For a moment
Just between real and awake
Crumbling
I see a different fate

He is, was my man
It's a real treat
Nervous
My heart skips a beat

For a second
Only can I touch
Crying
My tears you hush

Our souls to meet
In a foreign land
Reaching
But I don't know if I can

Apocalypse

In a world far away
Alone I wait
Each and every day
For someone

In a world gloomy and clear
I laugh aloud
Full of idle fears
Loneliness consumes

In a world so cruel
I crave excitement
For my time to rule
The worlds priced high

Poser

You and your cryptograms
Me and my trying
I'll never be an enigma
Can't blame a girl for lying

Me and my poems
You and your songs
Ill never be a lyricist
I can't write very strong

You and your trumpet
Me and my guitar
Let's start a band
You can be the star

Never Ever

Never will I ever
Get a chance
For us to have
A sugary romance

Never will I ever
Get to say
How you mean
More than each day

Never will I ever
Be able to touch or kiss
Your skin, your lips
And true bliss

Never will I ever
Get to hear
Your incite
And your fears

Never will I ever
Get to see the sun
Feel your touch
Or your love hon

Never will I ever
Be able to get ahold
Thinking of you
A love story untold

Bedroom Eyes

Twilight blue
Please comfort me
Your heavenly glow
Reminds of the sea

I'm mesmerized
Your such an alluring sight
Pulling me in
My body takes flight

Blue aurora
Illuminates my dark
How so magical
A journey I embark

Overflow dream
Into my dark mind
Colors captivate
And eternally blind

Road Kill

I'm over dosing on pain
Call call call
The doctor will not come
If I'm really quiet I can hear the monks hum

On the table I wait to die
Hurry hurry hurry
Hope is none to one
I bid you farewell my soul is on the run

Stop the madness
Quiet quiet quiet
I hear as I shoot up
He gives me a pill and a cup

The walls mock
Laughs laughs laughs
And my shirt insults
The many voices inside me have long talks

Seven years pass
Go go go
They say I'm better
That I'll be a regular joe

A week later
Back back back
I see the padded walls
They knew I wasn't crazy when I killed u in a bathroom stall

Hope

Where did u go
Your hard to kiss
I search high and low
Which star do I wish

 

I look under my bed
And search for lovers
It's dusty instead
I still seek to find

 

I come humbled
Strengthen the stone
Dancing for rain
Black snakes do moan

15 minutes

Incomplete this lies awake
In plain sight I see my take
Holding out for the best
Hold me close to your chest
Signing the contract I'm binded tight
Saying to the wind "is this right"

 

No more lullabys I'm stepping out
Now is not the time to be about
Can't you tell the missing piece
Can't you see I won't cease
How can you play with fire
Hitting the cot for only an hour

Time is almost here
This brings great fear
Grazing the grass with my hand
Gazing into the eyes of this man
Never can I speak a thousand words
Never will I fly like a bird

One In A Million

I want to be struck by lighting
So strike me dead
I know exactly what I'm saying
Everything is okay in my head

I need to be struck by lighting
I waited for so long
Anxiously I sit
While the music ends our song

I prayed for the day I'm struck by lighting
Why haven't I been hit
I did all the incantations
What did I miss

Just To Hear Your Voice

Just to hear your voice
I listen to the wind
It fades fast
I'm losing my friend

Just to hear your voice
Cassette are all I know
I'm scared of fear
I don't want to let you go

Just to hear your voice
The crazy things I'd do
My heart can't explain
The connection I have with you

Just to hear your voice
And keep you in my head
I need you here
Enough said

Picture Imperfect

I need implants
I need abs
I need a body just fab
One hundred things wrong with me
Looking at photos of what I can never be

I need lighter hair
I need longer legs
I need to be debonair
Too many influences on my thoughts
Perfection is impossibly sought

I need bigger lips
I need a straighter nose
I need lots of chips
So many changes to make
When I look at myself I'm filled with hate

About a guy

About a guy
He has the most gorgeous eyes
Sometimes they're blue
Sometimes they're green
Did I mention he's mean

This guy so elusive
I don't understand him
Sometimes he's shy
Sometimes he's not
Intelligent, complicated, and hott

My guy makes me sizzle
I'm captivated instantly
Sometimes he's sad
Sometimes he's bad
Watch out when he gets mad

That guy, dangerous
You can't help but fall under his spell
Sometimes I'm nervous
Sometimes I'm in bliss
Blinded by each and every kiss

About this mind blowing guy
He's too deep to be alive
Sometimes I'm on edge
Sometimes I'm frighten
I will be here until the end

About him
What more can I say
Sometimes I'm crazy
Sometimes I'm blue
Your love makes me do things normally I wouldn't do

Mirrors

I know you
And you know me
But were to blind to see
That our situations are similarly

You save me
And ill save you
If only our hearts were true
Then we could break from blue

You and I
Find different types of High
Needing for god to stop our cry
Send us an angel from the sky

Me tempted by you
Now what are we to do
All we have is us two
I can't run without my shoe

Where could he be
Alone without any glee
They need to become a we
And deliverance we shall see

Blood

A surge of emotions
And I'm able to cry
Without that release
I know I have died

A pool of blood
I lay in defeat
Time ticks on
Reality is bleak

My pain surreal
Long ago I once knew
Seasons change
What shall I do

Keith

Keith and me
We hate each other
He screws me off
Time after time
I pay for his crime

I don't want to need him
But humans need this
He wins over me
And continues his assault
The way I'm acting is his fault

I can't think to well
In some me a
The headaches flood
Zombie is I
If I don't go under soon I'll die

At your will I crumble
There's nothing I can say
I've been punished enough
Do as you wish
Your evil relentless

Incomplete

Your dying words
Are my last wish
Carrying me
I don't want to write this

My soul to keep
But others want it
Nothing changes
I'm going out of my wits

Demons

I bid thee farewell
We won't meet again
Our time up
Goodbye sin

I needed you
But I am whole 
Rise against you
I'm taken back what you stole

I'm strong like a riddle
Ready to break you down
I pray the rosary
So I win this round

About Time

Today is the day
Tommorrow is far
Yesterday is going fast
I feel my past

Monday is wrong
Friday isn't right
Thursday's coming soon
I hug the moon

 

Now is boring
Here is scary
Never comes before my eyes
I'm consumed by all my lies

 

Today is the day
Tomorrow's here
Yesterday fades
And time is clear

Lighthouse

I want a guy
To treat you well
Show you your special
Take care of you for me

Hold you tight
When your crying
And wipe your tears
Giving you security

Look at you
In a loving way
A spiritual connection
Merges you into one

He'll be kind
What's in your heart
You'll see in him
I'll smile in heaven

Our time is missed
But I want you to have happiness
This is not goodbye
Even though I want you with another guy

Reset

The door opens
And shuts again
I take a step out
And start back where I begin

Is that failure
Should I restart
One to many setbacks
Has numbed my heart

The door opens
And closes once more
I take a step out
And pray life is what I hoped for

Monster

I'll be the monster you created
In your sleep
I'll be the monster you created
While I weep

I'll be the monster you created
In your mind
I'll be the monster you created
I need more wine

Ill be the monster you created
Because I'm full of hate
I'll be the monster you created
Theres no escape

I'll be the monster you created
To help you through
I'll be the monster you created
I'm hurting just like you

I'll be the monster you created
Because I'm full of demons
I'll be the monster you created
No one cares I'm screaming

Oh Say Can't You See Part 2

Wandering through the night
This city never sleeps
Alive with passion
So beautiful you may weep

The museum calls me
I peek in the window
It's majestic
Blossoming with innuendos

The lake is lit up brightly
Speaking my name
The waters vibrations pass through me
I'm so happy I came

A exotic taste in my mouth
What lies ahead next
Such a magical place
I must of been hexed

The cars drive slowly
As dawn will soon come
I watch in wonder
For my feet are numb

The dark has left
And light remains
My memories everlasting
I have so much to gain

The night was ours
And we learned so much
I found bliss
Nirvana was touched

Cookie Jar

I heard your poem
It still makes me cry
It was meant for me
Even though I wasn't alive

The way it touches me
Instantly I'm captivated
It surges through my body
I'm brought back to life, emancipated

Your voice so heavenly
An angel was sent
Your words mesmerizing
Im lost in your scent

So now is my turn
For me to say
Some words so special
In your heart it forever will stay

I love you more
Than I could ever express
You'll beat in my heart
Even though your at rest

Reach out from the sky
And take my hand
My love infinite
I'll be writing our story in the sand

Generation Me

Oh! I'm ashamed
So I won't show
That our apathy
Is aglow

Oh! I'm tired
Of revolting alone
An army of me
We need more clones

Oh! I'm ready
To run nowhere
I'll just stand
Watching without a care

Oh! I want
To stand proud
A sickness spreads
Called head in the clouds

Oh! I wish
Drama you didn't promote
Redirect your energy
Positivity should be invoked

The Reaping

I want to bleed the world
Just like they did me
Its there turn to hurt
And my time to be free

To see everyone suffer
That laughed while I cried
A knife in your back
My excitement I can't hide

I watched you cry
I'm elated
Your in so much pain
I'm so glad your jaded

Your reaping what you sowed
The bible proves true
If you were a better person
This wouldn't of happen to you

The Sad

The sad is too painful
I sent it all away
The sad is too depressing
I found a better day

The sad is too much
I can't take anymore
The sad is easy to touch
What am I looking for

The sad is the old me
I grew a lighter side
The sad tries to call
I don't hear its cries

The sad is too stressful
I'm spinning out of sight
The sad is darkness
Finally I'm alright

Looking In

Obtusely laying
And thoughts similarly
Fog around grey matters
Separating me from me

Complexities grow
And thoughts become
Seasonal but frequent
More convulsively numb

Sideway views
And thoughts alike
From a light house
Brings an anticipated delight

I Won't

I won't tell
If you do speak
Keep my secrets
And let's take a leap

I won't cry
If you say so
Visions of a rainbow
Tell me where to go

I wont be happy
If you are bleeding
Softly take my hand
In secret we're meeting

I won't dance
If you do feel
Touch me
I need to heal

I won't sing
If its not your will
Raindrops fall
My love does spill

Delirious

I run from the pit
But the quick sand chases
Swallowing my feet
I embrace it

Down in a hole
Looking for a beautiful lie
It so perfect in my head
Just let me get high

Remorse

You fucking criticize everything I do
Fuck you, fuck you
I feel like I can't be myself
I'm someone else, I'm someone else

You are still trying to kill me
I see, I see
I'm fighting in every way
Ill be okay, I'll be okay

You think I'm fine
How blind, how blind
To stupid to know
I won't go, I won't go

Angels and Demons

An angel sat and talked to god
He told her everything would be alright
She said this world to painful to endure
She long for the day suffering is no more

 

He comforted her and calmed the rain
Sent her to hell to change
He told her it would get rough
But she had him to call upon when things got tough

 

The angel lost itself in hell
But a tiny light shined through her hard shell
She was still there after all
Temptation she did fall

 

But she call on god whenever she would stray
He cleaned her up and sent her on her way
He told her he had a job for her to do
She promised she would come through

 

Good times and bad times god was there
She spread good cheer everywhere
The angel did exactly what god sent her here to do
She made this world less painful for me and you

Something like Hate

Men are cancer
A world of bliss
Stupid answers
I Wish they didn't exist

Men are dumb
I loath with malice
Banish them all to the slum's
I'm cold and callous

Men are pointless
Dreadful and atrocious
It's hard to hide my distest
I am ferocious

Men are evil
So it is
Dirty little weasels
They were such cute kids

Tribute

He's rowdy and he loves to fight
I just roll my eyes on his combative nights
How I love your bad boy way
Hes naughty, and loves to play

We fit each other like a glove
Argue, but never push and shove
Strange is what they call us
I shug it off they love to fuss

He grabs me, and holds me close
Whispers "your what I was missing most"
I understand his many plights
In so many ways we are alike

A classic good girl, bad boy tale
I'd stick with him if he went to jail
My love if there is ever anything I can do
If he left me for my heart I'd sue

Unusually High

I'm unusually high
I dont want to come down
I'm unusually high
Spinning up and around

I'm unusually high
My orgasm out of this world
I'm unusually high
I become unfurled

I'm usually high
I can't fight it
I'm unusually high
I need another hit

I'm unusually high
My soul in flames
I'm unusually high
Coming down is going to be lame

Recount

Dark and eerie, you
Lure me in
I fake and lie
But I want a little taste of sin

Holding me tight, your
Arms cradle my weary
Mesmerized by your spark
I faint not seeing clearly

With no release, you
Caught me so easily
I wish To go back
But this feeling too breezy

Worthy of regret, your
Showing no shame
Was it worth this
I play a losing game

Dear John

Come as you are
And be yourself
Don't listen to anybody else

Come as you are
And as you should be
Nothing wrong with being different from he

Come as you are
And cleanse away
Anew your innocence can stay

Come as you are
And as you will
Thou shall not kill

Come as you are
As a new friend
Soon our hearts will mend

Come as you are
And as you were
I know you loved her

Come as you are
And don't be late
I'll be waiting for you at the heaven's gate

Shadows

My dark angel
Wherever I go
Follows me
Her face she doesn't show

My dark angel
Protects my being
Is she evil
What am I seeing

My dark angel
I am afraid
Help me
My soul they can't raid

My dark angel
What did you do
For fate
Hath darkness bestowed upon you

Soulmates

He calls
He cries
He pleads

I come
I touch
I answer

She tells
She smiles
She runs

You whisper
You sing
You follow

He pains
He wants
He needs

I feel
I hurt
I reciprocate

He is
He will
He won't

I do
I say
I don't

You sit
You wait
You inspire

She sees
She speaks
She stops

We changed
We grew
We are

Martyr

Ill be your martyr
If you promise me you'll survive
I'm putting myself out there
To show you I'm on your side

It took me awhile to accept my fate
I was a desperate girl
Hurling myself into a fantasy
There was no escaping my world

Forever in the mist of sorrow
I sought for a brighter days
Just to inspire you
I changed my negative ways

Story Telling

In a forest of purple and pink trees
A gaze of wonder leaves me
I was skipping to town from the hills
Exploring a new path with many thrills

The berries fall from the tree
I am on bent knee
I eat them one by one
My face is burnt from the sun

I'm stuck on the ground
It's a long way from town
A thought of home passes through
Where have the rabbits gone to?

Even though I must'nt stay
Something won't break me away
This mystic land I know well
Isn't of peace like in the fairy tales

A shadow is cast down from above
I hear the humming of doves
Panic strikes me real fast
Moving will be a tricky task

Finally I'm able to run
Some awful music has begun
My time has come to near
How did I even get here

I wake up in my bed
Could that adventure be in my head
It felt to alive to be a dream
I'm blinded by a white beam

Perfectly Imperfect

I'm so perfect
Why do I need to be
I can't stop criticizing me

I know I'm the only enemy
Yet I rip myself out
Going crazy inside I need to shout

Hear me now
Before its too late
My organs swollen I've sealed my fate

I fail on schedule
Tear me away some more
Im not stopping until I'm sore

Am I so opposite
Why is wrong not right
Needing not to be so is my plight    

Overcome is today
Suffering from a flawed state
I'm looking forward to that date

Angel Burn

The voice of an angel
It is so sweet
Singing of death
You don't know hidden defeat

She sends her message
Your in awe
Drowned in her aurora
I wish you never saw

There's something so wrong
Yet I want it to be right
The illusions not real
But I don't want to fight

I sunk into the ocean
The strings in my ear
Her siren called home
The darkness almost near

Was It a Dream

Was it a dream
When we were together
I thought we'd last forever

Was it a dream
Too real to be true
How am I suppose to remember you

Was it a dream
A memory fading fast
All that's precious to me far from my grasp

Was it a dream
My moments shimmering away
I pray you come back to me one day

Was it a dream
Without your love I can't cope
I sing every night because I still have hope

Politics

What am I
Something unrealistically plain
To come up with an answer
I send my mind insane

Stop your thoughts
Press Pause
People like you
I blame for societies cause

Mocking Jay

Change is the key to all the worlds problems
But no one has an answer
I'm stuck living in cancer

Chaos all around
But no one is crazy
Why have a baby

Slated and jaded eyes scream
But everyone is full smiles
The world is in a bad state of denial

Pressures abundant
But no one can crack
Thinking in a box is wack

A savior bids light
But no one is lost
For your soul you will cost

Judging stares inside out
But everyone is plastic
Can you tell I'm being sarcastic

Ke$ha

We are who we are
So be who you want to be
Keep being yourself
And you'll be free

We want what we want
So go and achieve
It's going to get hard
Fight when you need to grieve

We do as we do
So go get it done
Make your mistakes
Regret isn't fun

We see what we see
So stop the acid lies
It looked better in the desert
But you must be wise

We are who we are
So go for all you want
Be who you need
The thrill is in the hunt

Death at a Price

Damned from birth
What am I worth
I saw too much
My mouth I hush

Gone with the wind
I'm crying for sin
Hooked on a show
Matter of fact it's snow

What does anything mean
This world turned me green
I sing a song
To be remembered when I'm gone

Insecure Girl

Insecure girl
Trapped in a shallow world
She doesn't have a friend
Or anything to believe in

Insecure girl
So cold and lonely
Her mind asleep in the streets
If only if only

Insecure girl
Blames herself for today
She needs love
But her thoughts she can't say

Insecure girl
Run run to a castle
Be my queen
See through your hassle

Insecure girl
Woven with anger
Smile with your heart
Her feelings will hang her

Insecure girl
Your story to a close
Continue to fly
Your a budding rose

Tall

O crying sea
I come into the mountains
I go without wonder
Proud and vigorous

From the sky
The hymns read
A special song
That plant a seed

Tall they sprout
Casting down virtue
My symphony
Came with the flood

Catch 22

Even when your next to me you are millions of miles away
Together seems like an eternity from today
Burning desire takes over the logical part of my brain
I want you so much it feels like I'm going insane

This one-sided love tears me apart
I'm wishing I could see into you heart
I need to know if my name is there
Something deep down tells me you do care

The ultimate love song couldn't express the crazy things I do
No one understands why I need to be with you
Until destiny brings you to me
I'll be dreaming of what we could be

This is the sad part
I need to distance my heart
But there is to much distance between us two
Once again I'm damned by a catch 22

Selective hearing

You like to hear lies
So ill feed you full
I'm not mean
What if I am a little cruel

Your feelings ill bury
Laugh as you fall face first
Pushing you in shit
It's going to get worse

Cycles

I hate you
Go away
I hate you
Die today

I love you
Please understand
I love you
My heart's grand

I miss you
It's been to long
I miss you
Just listen to our song

I need you
I'm steady
I need you
Are you ready

FallingStars

A star for Nick
One for Sahara too
She wants fame just like the both of you

You know it
And I know as well
Nobody else here can tell

You will
I won't get far
I'm being dragged down in tar

She sang for him
I sing for you
The wind called us too

Her voice desperate
My voice the same
Could you be from a distant game

You want peace
I want you to find it again
Third time around we will win

Prick

I bleed
I clump
I touch
I'm red

I hurt
I flow
I see
I'm cut

Peek-a-Boo

Into another demention
You send me back to 1994
My skin I'm pinching
I feel like I just walked through the door

Sitting in a studio
Watching you shine
I can't fathom
How this isn't in my mind

You can't see me
But I hear
I call your name
Im still very unclear

Ghostly we are
Just like this feeling
For him to see me
I've started willing

I go to reach
Instead I recoil
I'm scared that if I touch you
This moment I'll spoil

Watching in silence
I'm closer than before
Even though I'm near you
I still ache for more

Promise Me

Promise me
You will give up
If this gets to much
And lead a different life

Promise me
You'll still burn
When you bleed
And they bleed you

Promise me
You won't change
Your light remain untouched
Assure me we'll stay the same

Promise me
You'll always stay
And keep by my side
We'll be okay because we have god

Promise me
You'll find me
When heaven calls
I'll be behind you, time has stalled

Shooting Star

I wish I wasn't angry
I wish I was better
I wish I wish
To be more cleaver

I wish I didn't love
I wish I didn't want you
I wish I wish
But it isn't true

I wish I liked who I am
I wish I liked not to die
I wish I wish
For my soul to comply

I wish I had charm
I wish I had what it takes
I wish wish
To get a big break

Marilyn Monroe

I'm impulsive and crazy
But that's just me
I'm quick to attack
And never think rationally

Spontaneous and wild
A side most don't see
Take your time
I'll set you free

Stained by pain
I have a lot to learn
Bruised and insecure
For more I still yearn

I never listen
And do the opposite of what I'm suppose to
I'll fall on my face
Then come crying back to you

You haven't seen mean
Or sarcasm like mine
I don't mean to hurt you
It's just part of the grind

Extremely moody and inpatient
You'll never satisfy
Taught my self to be strong
And to not let anyone see me cry

I'm hard to deal with
That I know
Love the flawed me
And ill take you to a place most can't go

Why Love

Why love
Of all the other things I could of done
I could of been famous
Or on the run

Why love
Floating so high
A cloud of tranquil
How did I ever get by

Why love
Did you pick me
Graciously I wonder
Was I more deserving than she

Why love
Open not sore
I am new
My hurt and pain walked out the door

Why love
Do you exist
What a world
Without such a magical bliss

Slow Burn

My friend is slowly killingThe soul that lies inside
Everyone else is fed up
But I can't just close my eyes

I'll be a thorn in your side
As long as you get clean
I don't care if you hate me
Or if your being mean

Forcing you to see your strength
When you want to give in
Your stronger than your addiction
This losing game you can win

Constantly I'm on your case
One day you'll thank me
I ignore your curse words
Marking the day until your drug free

Your resentment I see
It hurts me you know
You don't mean it
So I let you put on your show

One step at a time
You'll been sober for a day
I'll keep pushing you
Together we'll pray

Window Pain

My bedroom knows only of the rain
My heart struck with love sick pain
I am not who I seem to be
All I dream of is poetry

 

I'm barred to this confine

We all must walk the line
I blame grey for my functions
They never work in conjunction

Be My Lullaby

Be my lullaby
And sing me to sleep
Be my lullaby
I'm yours to keep

Be my lullaby
You are just right
Be my lullaby
As I whisper Goodnight

Be my lullaby
As I fall
Be my lullaby
Play throughout the hall

Be my lullaby
Send me away
Be my lullaby
If you will I may

Alcohol

A feeling
Rises
Boils in me
Crawling

This feeling
Burns
It makes me squirm
Aching

I'm feeling
Temptation
Erase my mind
Obsession

That feeling
Needing
Teasing my desire
Craving

My feeling
Crying
Hear it no
Pulsating