Phantasmata

My awake is painful
My dreams are still
I'm somewhere in between

My awake is a monster
My dreams are faint
I'm somewhere else

My awake is a dream
My dreams are awake
I'm in another body

My awake is tainted
My dreams are a game
I'm frozen in time

My awake is god given
My dreams are of heaven
I'm a zombie

My awake can kill
My dreams surreal
I'm learning to be alive